There are a lot of things on teenager's minds: sports, food, sex, college, music, movies, sex, celebrities, money, and sex.

Sex, it's the topic that occurs the most on a teen's mind. Even if you're not doing it, you're still thinking about it. Even if you are not thinking about it, sex is still on your mind. It's all around us. Women dress to impress men and vice versa. Magazines include articles about how to prolong one's orgasm, and movies show steamy sex scenes making our teenage minds fantasize about Brad Pitt or Jennifer Aniston. Like I said before, the promotion of sex is all around us.

Being a teen myself, I'll admit it's on my mind a lot. I've been pondering if I should go through with it or wait longer. I don't mean to make sex sound like a tedious task, but from what I understand about it and from what the media and the rest of the world make of sex, it kind of becomes a tedious task. What I mean is, being a teenage girl I overanalyze situations like I am just about to do.

I feel that who you have sex with is important. It's a mental thing. Being a teen I do want to have sex soon. BUT, I want to have it mean something. I don't want to have it with a guy who doesn't respect me, or just dates me to have sex, and then after we do it when were together everything will be weird. I mean, physically I'm ready, but mentally I'm not sure. I like my boyfriend but I don't love him…yet. He's a great guy and I'm sure he would be caring, but I don't how I would act afterwards. I hope I wouldn't be too aloof. I would have so much racing through my mind. Such as: did I do it just to get it over with, was he the right guy, should I have done it with John, does he expect sex now whenever were together, is our relationship just for the sex and for nothing else, will I get pregnant, was I good, should I tell my parents?

Maybe I won't think of any of these things. Maybe the aftermath of sex is completely different than what I'm making it out to be. All I know is that when I wake up in the morning and see my guy laying next to me I don't want that to be awkward. I want him to look at me with a look that makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world.