JON SFERAZO: Sometimes, I never went home. I felt like I was in peril. I
felt like I only found sanctity, security by being there. Where do you find
comfort after something like that?
I expected my family to be very receptive. You know, my
kids, they couldn't grasp it. Here's dad. He's not the same guy. He's
short-tempered. He stays by himself. My kids saw this guy that started becoming
verbally aggressive. I was taking it out on them.
This was my way of reacting to what I ingested. And I wound
up pushing these kids away from me. Even my wife was growing irritable, just
being around my irritability.
I was so into my feelings. I was so distraught, so ripped
apart after seeing what I saw at the Trade
Center. I needed
professional help. So, I got into a group. And it was a group of 9/11
responders. They had group therapy. And that was the door being lifted off my
chest. It was the door that was opening for me, that started the counseling
that I go to now, even to this day, five years later.
I didn't find anybody, you know? That's not easy to live
with, when that's what your intent was. So, I got to do something. I got to try
to help people, you know?
I and others formed an organization, the Unsung Heroes
Helping Heroes, because too many of us are suffering in silence. I urge you, I
urge all of you who want to be advocates, who have problems, please, come
forward, as I have done. Let your voices be heard.
JON SFERAZO: We created a not-for-profit organization to aid
and assist responders.
What we do is try to get them their medical, pharmaceutical,
psychological needs, and, in some cases, help them with financial opportunities
that might still be available.
The victims' compensation fund is closed, but the crime
victims board is still open. And the people who have lost a lengthy amount of
time from work, we know it's difficult.
I'm finally starting to see a tunnel now that's got a little
light at the very end. You know, I got the kids back. I'm able to deal, not the
way I want to yet, but I'm getting there.