Some days I want to spend the entire day exploring the new interest or idea my kids woke up with that morning.
Some days I want to walk out the door to an exciting photo shoot and leave the kids with a babysitter who makes cookies with them and does messy crafts.
Some days I want to stay in bed and read without even a thought of responsibility of any kind.
Some days I want to design and make elaborate large whole cardboard box villages with my kids in the backyard.
Some days I want to retreat to my local coffee shop to write and sip tea with no one asking me to prepare a drink, snack or meal.
Some days I want to grab lunch with people in my line of work and network over gourmet loveliness.
Some days I want it all...
Mostly, I find myself trying to write early in the morning before kids wake up, running to a photo shoot hoping I didn't forget my battery and grabbing a cereal bar for lunch while I juggle this still really good life I have. Yet I wonder what it would be like to work full-time, I feel guilty for being home but not always present, I add and subtract the never ending to-do list in my head. I imagine what it all should look like.
I'm realizing it must be in our very code as parents to wonder, hope, worry that we are giving our kids everything we can so they can live the life they deserve. At the same time, trying to do the same for ourselves as individuals. Everyone around us with the same hope but doing it a million different ways. We do the best with what is before us and still sometimes long for different circumstances or dream of the greener grass next door. I'm sure it comes back to taking stock of good, the good that we have and the good we are doing by loving and holding those most dear.
But today, I give you full perrmission to imagine a little in the comments. What do you want some days?