On October 17th I went to bed and I fell asleep, obviously, and I woke up with the most intense dream that I thought it was real. I heard my brother calling my name and in my subconscious I just laid there and it finally woke me up and I thought that this is my brother calling me and I woke up and the vision that I saw in my head: he had his arms out like he was reaching out and when I looked at him there was a giant hole in his stomach, I could see through it, it was like a Lifesaver hole. It was just -- that's all I could see of his stomach -- and he was calling my name and it was just so, so real.
And when I woke up, I'm not even sure I can put it into words, but it was just the most horrifying nightmare, daydream, I'm not sure what I had, but it was just a vision that I, in my heart, I believe that my brother -- at that point, at that instant, with his arms up -- was reaching out as a final hug to say his last goodbye. And then we found out that he was killed.