At this point in my life I've decided to stop self sabotaging behaviors. I've seen drug addiction, lived with 8 family members in a empty one bedroom apartment, sexual assault, so many things that use to make me think that maybe it's me; maybe I deserve this. But I don't I deserve to be happy and I owe it to myself to fight for what I know I'm worthy of. No more guilt, no more unnecessary pain. I'm resilient.