At this point in my life I am where I am, and not at all where I thought I would be in the past. Learning to change my expectations, when I lost the futures I imagined was extremely difficult, but I did, and I seek every moment of joy and meaning out of my present moments. My "fit" in traditional society was always tenuous, and the more I tried to be normal, the more difficult things became. I am unmarried, no children, and not on the tenure-track, at 44 years old, and not for lack of trying. Chasing a life of meaning thwarted my attempts to chase a life of normality. Now, I just want to teach, tell stories, enjoy beautiful sights, sounds and flavors, and have stability. Stability is the problem, because of academic life, but I am ever hopeful of better tomorrows, for myself and the world.