MullerHitchhiking Vietnam
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Discreet knuckles rapped gently at my door. I hurried for clothes. Tam came in, awkward with the unaccustomed familiarity of my bedroom. He had always waited for me in the lobby. Something was wrong. He sat on the edge of a chair in the far corner of the room, clasping and unclasping his hands. "I have something to tell you," he admitted miserably. "I sat up all night trying to figure out how to say it." His smooth, callous-free palms flashed among coarse knuckles of past labor. He paused, then blurted, "I can't go with you on the bicycle. You see, my family's going to America soon - with the Orderly Departure Program. The paperwork's all ready and we're just waiting for the tickets. I have to stay in Saigon for my name to be called. Perhaps if you just went on day trips, with the motorcycle..." His voice trailed off.

My heart sank. I wanted something more than day-long excursions. I gently explored for other explanations. That his wife was having second thoughts entrusting her husband to a foreigner. That, at forty-five, he had rightfully outgrown second-hand bicycles. Or perhaps my initial offer of salary and expenses was a shade too low.

He shook his head indignantly. "I'm not an official guide," he explained, "I was already arrested once for taking a foreigner into the countryside." Another arrest at this delicate stage of his application process could prove disastrous. One phone call from a provincial police chief to the right department and he would lose his place on the list with the stroke of a pen...

"But I gave you my word that I would help you," he added quickly. "I just don't know any other guides that I would trust as I do myself." Nevertheless, he promised to try to find an official guide who could procure the proper papers. An older man, perhaps, with family and integrity. The permits could be readied in a matter of weeks.

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