There was times that I used to get angry, and curse them out. I'm keeping it real, you understand? I didn't have no patience. and I didn't understand why they'd walk past you and, you know, look at you like you, like you was a piece of sh [she stops herself from cursing on tape] you know.
But then I started to understand... some of them would say "Why don't you get a job," or this and that, you know, but it ain't that easy to go out there and find a job overnight. You understand? Everybody ain't as fortunate as other people, you understand? But you got to do what you got to do to survive.
It's better than robbing somebody, and there were times that I was saying in my mind [things] that made me angry. I wanted toyou knowrob a couple of people in the subway. Out of anger, you know, out of denial! And I'm keeping it real with you. I'm serious!
What types of people ignore you?
Well you got some nasty people out there, who feel that they're better than you and whatnot, but we're all the same people. There's nobody better than the next person, that's the way I feel. But I try not to let that bother me, that's their hang-up. That's their thing, I'm not going to let it affect me.
'Cause if I let it affect me, it's just going to make me mad, I'll start acting just as ignorant as they are. I try not to pay them no mind, 'cause like I say, I'm not going to fall into their mentality. That's their mentality. They're entitled to feel the way they want to. I'm not going to let it affect me cause I'm out here to accomplish something, to take care of myself. And I'm not going to let them affect me or put me into a bad mood or a bad hang-up like that. If I were to start cursing or whatnot, it would just make more me ignorant than they are.
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