What gets me out of bed in the morning is my two nieces. Having several mental illnesses for as long as I can remember, it was always hard to find reasons to stay alive. Eventually I was allowing anyone to treat me how they wanted, since I had no respect for myself and no strive to live. After my first niece was born, I realized that I do not want her to see my way of life and think it is normal, or acceptable. So, I left my abusive relationships and started planning for the future, which is something I never even thought I would see! Now even on days where it is hard to get out of bed, where my mind is the loudest thing in the world, I know that as soon as I open my door I will hear those girls screaming "Good morning Auntie BB," and that is all I need to look forward to the future.