I never expected to be a mom to a 12 year old and a newborn, and in such a hard time (as the pandemic). I never expected to experience postpartum depression, especially since I didn't experience that with my 12 year old. I never expected to cry as much as I have in the past month. I never expected life to feel exhausting as it does now. But I know it will get better and this will all be something in the past, and I will strive.