>> I'M NOT QUITE SURE HOW, BUT EVERYBODY AROUND ME IS GETTING OLDER.

MY PATIENTS, MY CHILDREN, EVEN ME.

AND THIS IS AFFECTING MY BRAIN, BECAUSE TODAY, MORE THAN EVER, I SPEND MY TIME WAITING FOR RESULTS.

RESULTS FROM A MATH TEST, RESULTS FROM A BIOPSY, RESULTS FROM A CAR INSPECTION, REFRESH, REFRESH, WHAT ARE THE RESULTS?

AND TO BE FAIR, THE RESULTS DO MATTER.

THEY FILL MY CALENDAR WITH ACADEMIC EVENTS, FINANCIAL CONCERNS AND MEDICAL PROCEDURES.

IT'S ALMOST ENOUGH TO CHALLENGE MY SENSE OF FREE WILL.

IT'S NOT ME MAKING THE CHOICES.

IT'S THE RESULTS.

BUT THE REAL DOWNER IS THAT ALL THIS WAITING CAN MAKE IT DIFFICULT TO ENJOY PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING ELSE.

INSTEAD OF LIVING, I'M ALWAYS TENSING, ALWAYS PROGNOSTICATING AND ALWAYS BRACING MYSELF FOR AN APPROACHING STORM THAT HONESTLY, MAY NEVER ARRIVE.

IT'S EXHAUSTING.

AND IT AKES ME FEEL OLDER THAN I REALLY AM.

THE LESSON I'VE TAKEN FROM THIS, IN FACT, THE ONLY LESSON I'VE BEEN ABLE TO TAKE FROM THIS, IS THAT AS AN ADULT, YOU SIMPLY NEED TO FIND A WAY TO LIVE COMFORTABLY WITH UNCERTAINTY.

I KNOW THAT'S AN OBVIOUS THING TO SAY, BUT MY GOODNESS, IT IS A DIFFICULT MENTAL STATE TO ACHIEVE.

WHAT FASCINATES ME IS THAT THERE ARE SO MANY WAYS TO PURSUE THIS COMFORT.

I KNOW PEOPLE WHO TAKE THE HEADSTRONG APPROACH.

THEY BASICALLY SAY I'M AMAZING AND WHATEVER COMES MY WAY, I'LL JUST SOLVE IT.

OKAY, THAT'S A BIT ARROGANT IN MY MANY, BUT WHO AM I TO TELL SOMEONE THEY'RE NOT AMAZING?

I KNOW OTHER PEOPLE WHO SATURATE THEMSELVES IN ADVANCE.

THEY RUN THROUGH EVERY WORST CASE SCENARIO, AND THAT WAY, WHATEVER'S REAL, IT'S NEVER AS BAD AS WHAT THEY'VE ALREADY IMAGINED.

ALL RIGHT, WELL, TO ME, THAT'S A COLD AND WET AYE TO LIVE, BUT WHO AM I TO TAKE AWAY SOMEONE'S BUCKET?

IS THE PATH I IS SMIER TO IS PROBABLY SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE.

IT'S ESSENTIALLY TWO WORDS.

WE'LL SEE.

WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

QUE SERA SERA.

I LIKE THIS APPROACH BECAUSE IT HELPED ME REALIZE SOMETHING THAT FEELS DEEPLY TRUE.

THE RESULTS AREN'T WHAT'S TAKING UP ALL MY TIME.

IT'S THE AITING.

AND THE WAITING ISN'T REAL.

IT LITERALLY DOES NOT XIST IN THE PHYSICAL WORLD.

AND WHEN I REMIND MYSELF THAT WAITING IS JUST A BEHAVIOR I CAN MINIMIZE, I FREE UP MORE THAN ENOUGH TIME TO ENJOY MY LIFE, NO MATTER WHAT THE RESULTS ARE.

SO EUREKA, FREE WILL RESTORED, LIFE IS GOOD AGAIN.

I THINK.

MAYBE.

I GUESS W