Previously on Girl Unscripted.

How do you have a probation officer?

What?

What's the chain of events for that?

I get arrested a lot, don't I?

I've been arrested once.

I've run away from the cops about nine times.

Kendra.

Kendra.

I love you.

Do you think if Kendra sees you doing all this bad stuff it will make her think it's okay to do it too?

Yeah.

And that's the reason why I need to change.

I'm, I'm about to show you my most favorite part about the woods.

I think it's beautiful so yeah.

This is just like my home.

I don't know what I'd do without this place.

I don't know what I'm going to do when they tear it all down.

What do you wish was different in your life if you could have a different life?

I wish that, like, I didn't have, like, a bad record.

I didn't get arrested so much.

I wish I could act better because I want to, like just know that Kendra will be okay and f * * *, let's just start over.

Every girl, regardless of where she lives, One bad decision will send her to the wrong direction.

OK, I better just do it via phone 'cause I think...Jenny, Jenny, Jenny, Jenny.

Connect.

Try, try, try.

Hello?

[gasps] O-M-G!

O-M-G!

Oh, my gosh!

Hi!

Hi!

How are you?

I'm gonna try to go outside; there's, like, terrible connection here.

Oh, OK. Are you in St. Joe?

Yeah.

My mom's now living with me and my uncle.

Oh, OK. Oh, that's cool!

Your ma is.

Oh, my gosh!

That's a trip!

I, like, cannot stand her, though.

I've already beat her up twice.

Like, I know it sounds terrible, but... No, it doesn't.

I get you.

[laughing] Can you see that you were kind of a bully, growing up, to people?

[laughing] Yeah.

I've always been mean.

My name now these days is "The C * * *."

[laughing] I like that you like it, though.

That's funny.

That's what I like, yeah.

I like that it's, like, politically incorrect.

Yeah.

I'm like, "F * * *, yeah!

I'm more than a bitch!"

And I slapped her like that in the head, just like that.

And she goes, Jennifer why'd you do that?

And I was like, Shut up, you little p * * * *.

I don't care, darlin.

No, that's my boob.

Shut up.

Do it.

Please.

At all times.

Be respectful of them.

Be respectful of each other.

It's like, so easy to be mean and you get accepted when you're mean.

People think it's cool when you're mean.

Don't film me.

Shut it off, I'll slap you.

See, it's s * * * like that that pisses me off.

I'm gone.

In elementary school, I was her only friend.

Nobody was getting smart with her until she started saying, Don't get smart with me.

And nobody was getting loud.

-- bitch you think I'm playing?

Jenny.

What did you say to me?

Don't f * * * * * * touch me.

Don't you f * * * * * * get smart with me you stupid fat bitch.

Until she said, Don't get loud.

I don't know, I just -- if they get an attitude with me, then it's time to go.

Do I still look like a friggin diva?

You look like a diva since the day I met you.

This is how I smoke my marijuana.

I'm not allowed to hang out with her.

Oh, with your mom.

What did your mom say?

My dad won't let me.

What did he say?

He said that she's a bad influence.

Rachel.

Go get your stuff pronto.

Give me it now.

Would you like to have it?

Are you too short to grab it?

Try to grab it.

My name is Jennifer Renee and the J stands for Joy.

E stands for educated.

The N stands for nice.

The N stands for naughty.

The Y stands for You're solid, you're my bud.

No, I'm not.

Clap, clap, not golf clap.

Like, What do you think of when people get angry at you and just try to discipline you and stuff like that?

I don't like being told what to do, so I get like really, really mad.

Hey guys.

Guess what?

Our new teacher's here.

Our new teacher's here.

We can't.

Stop f * * * * * * moving.

How'd you go?

F * * * you.

Rachel.

If you don't stop moving I'm going to punch you in your f * * * * * * face.

We'll just sit here okay, and if she's like, Girls, I'm like, Bitch please, you're trippin.

I'm not leaving.

We're not leaving.

You're trippin.

They think we're leaving, we're not f * * * * * leaving.

Stop moving.

Sorry.

Wait for me.

I have anger issues.

Me too.

It's all right.

My leg itches.

Look at me walk while I itch my leg.

How are you and Rachel friends?

How long have you guys been friends?

Since I was dating her brother, Jake.

She'd always want to hang out with me and Jake, but Jake wouldn't let her.

Yeah, like when we're together, we are wild.

Like we are crazy.

We'll go to the library and stuff and then we'll go out on the library yard and just act so r * * * * * * *.

Like we'll make up stupid dances and stuff like our salsa, salsa, salsa.

Like when we get together, just dumb things happen that are hilarious.

Salsa, salsa, salsa, salsa and chips.

About a year ago, my brother Jennifer -- my brother Jake met Jennifer and Jennifer said that she was 16.

So my brother dated her until he found out how old she was.

Did you tell him how old she was?

He found out from some other way.

Did she say, Don't tell him.

Don't tell him.

She swear to you to secrecy?

Her dad found out how old he was.

What do you think -- what do you think her life is like?

Do you think she has some real, real, real hard parts and things that are really a drag that she has to deal with?

What do you think some of those things are?

Her mom was in prison for a long time.

It's probably tough on her.

She tells me stories like one day she told me that her parole officer called her and told her that she might have to go to BCA for how many times she got arrested.

And she told him that she's not going to stop smoking weed and that she's tripping.

Wow.

Does your mom worry about you hanging out with Jenny?

But I don't tell her that she smokes weed or anything.

I think if I was a mom, I would worry about my daughter hanging out with Jenny.

Not because of Jenny, because she could be so awesome, but because she does things just to be cool and she doesn't think them through.

She doesn't think them through, and she doesn't realize how -- Her mom lets her do that, though.

Yeah.

But that's lame.

That's not cool.

Her mom buys it for her and that's r * * * * * * *.

My daughter did have a drug problem for a while.

And therefore, she -- I think Jenny thought, well, it was cool, you know, go ahead and do the drugs and stuff like that.

And I don't think she's done any hard drugs or anything other than smoke marijuana and she don't do it anymore, I don't think.

I mean, of course, she can't be there every minute of the day.

And, but I really think she's she told me she says, Grandma I won't do it no more.

So I hope that's what she follows through with.

But if I spend the night with her, I would talk to her and stuff.

I told my dad that.

But he just yells at me.

He's worried about you.

Do you think you look up to Jenny?

Or -- what kinds of things do you look up to her about?

She's really intelligent and smart and the stuff that she's doing ain't very wise and she's better than that.

And I hope that she would notice that and stop and quit.

Can you see some of the things that she does that make her not reach her potential that are similar to some things that, that you do that make it so you can't reach your potential?

What's potential?

Your the -- the limit.

Like, you know when people say the sky's the limit?

When you have your goals and your dreams and you could do anything, do you think that it keeps you from reaching those goals?

Drugs, yeah.

But like she probably can't do as much as she wants to do.

Well.

Um, I guess with the UA doing the urine test all the time, you know, she has to stay clean or she'll get in big trouble.

You know.

I'm not scared of being, like, locked up or anything.

Do you think -- I mean, I'll miss my family and stuff.

I'm just, like, not scared of being like -- because I've been to juvenile and all before, it's no big deal.

You just sit in a cell.

I don't like spending my time in juvenile and stuff.

It makes me mad because I hate doing nothing.

I'm like sitting in juvenile and just sitting there, and there's nothing to do at all.

Like nothing.

So I hate wasting my time because I could be like, I could be out there doing this, this, this.

It makes me mad.

I mean, I don't want to go to juvenile, but it's something I have to do because I have consequences for the bad things I do, but --.

I might be getting off probation today, so I don't know.

Do you think that you'll pass the UA test?

Yeah.

She's talking about me.

Don't challenge -- She shouldn't -- I wasn't challenging her, I was telling her what's up.

I'm not arguing -- Just whatever.

Send me home, dude.

Buh bye.

Come on, hurry up.

Let's go.

Okay.

Let's go.

All right.

Come on.

Stay here.

I don't think I asked you what happened the other day when she got in your face and was like threatening you.

What -- what -- what happened from your point of view, from your perspective?

I guess she was sitting under the stairs over there, that side of the building, and we were coming back from the Black Box Theater for a shoot.

I said something about lunch because they didn't have enough chili dogs or something.

And I was like, Danny said that there was enough for two for everybody.

And I said, But Jennifer took four and Clarissa took three.

And I think Breanna took some more, too.

And I was like, Well, I think Jennifer took two at a time.

And then three other people came back and they got a second one.

And then Jennifer and Clarissa came back and Danny was like, You guys have had enough go away.

And so they got mad and they went back and sat down and told everybody what happened and -- And so then when she came into the classroom, you were -- tell me about that.

I was -- I was sitting at my computer and I was working and she came up like 5 minutes, whenever we came back from the Black Box Theater.

You're here, they come in the door and Jenny's all mad and she stomps.

She gets in front of me and she goes, What was you talking about?

I swear to God, Pearl, if I hear you talking about me one more time, I'm going to beat you up.

I was like, Jenny, just stop.

And I was like, she goes, No, Pearl I ain't going to stop.

And then Rachel goes, Jennifer, go into the hallway and she goes, No, I don't have to do anything.

And then Lisa Marie stepped in and said, Jennifer, you really need to go somewhere to cool down.

And she goes, You better shut the f up.

I ain't scared of you.

I'll beat you up right now.

And she, Lisa Marie, kind of just stood there and looked at her and Rachel goes, Okay, we got to go.

Well -- Why did this have to happen?

Because, man, I was trying to ask Pearl something and she came in there butting into my business.

From what I understand, you screamed at Pearl.

I came and I was like, Why are you talking s * * * about me?

Just because I was like not there.

If you're going to talk crap on me.

Then you need to do it in front of me.

But she wasn't, she was -- And then she came in there and she was like, that lady was like, You don't need to be snapping at people.

I was like, Well, you need to stay out of my business.

And I told her what's up.

So you understand why you're getting sent home then?

Yeah, I'm proud.

You're proud?

Yeah.

Are you okay?

You sure?

Yeah I'm just pissed.

I just got off probation and they're putting me back on it because of my last arrest in May.

What do you mean?

Like I just like, got off probation and I was doing good and everything -- A week ago, right?

Yeah.

Yeah, and they're trying to put me back on it and like, it's been bothering me dude.

Pissing me off.

So you think that some things that are going on in your personal life or at home and things are why you act out here or why you get irritable and are more likely to -- I wouldn't have yelled at her if I wasn't so mad.

But man.

Dude.

I haven't got arrested since school was out.

Like I got arrested two days before school was out, and they're just now finding out about that and they're trying to put me back on probation.

But is it because they're finding out about it, or is it because they went to court and now because of the court -- They're just now finding out about it.

Your probation officer is?

My old probation officer is.

And she's kicking me out of her committee, which I was already out of it.

And now she's trying to say, since I got arrested one more time I'm on probation again, and I just got off probation.

Beginning of the week, she said.

I haven't had a cigarette in a long time, so if I get lippy with you, it's not personal.

I mean, I really have never liked her.

I mean, I went to school with her and I don't want to be around her because I mean, she's mean and hateful.

Are you going to try to improve on your bad behavior and how?

Yes, I'm going to try to have a more positive outcome and not have such a bad attitude about everything.

And calm down a little bit.

Okay.

That's it.

Thanks.

What's the deal with you and your folks?

Like what?

What -- how do you feel about your folks?

Kind of get annoying because when they ain't home, I'm mad at them, but when they are home, they're annoying.

You know, it's just one of those types of things.

What do you think of the whole Jenny, Rachel craziness?

Like, sometimes I see you struggling with trying to be your own person, and other times I see you struggling with being in their circle.

And what do you make of all that stuff, honestly?

Honestly, kind of wouldn't try to stay in that group, so they don't want to beat me up because if they want to fight me, I'm going to feel like I need to fight them because I'm going to need to defend myself.

And so, Clarissa so, so what happened then?

We were doing interviews and Rachel comes in, you know, being immature and stuff.

And I said, Hey, this isn't the right time.

It's time for interview.

And she's like, You need to shut the f up, you little B-word.

I'm like, Okay, whatever.

You can leave if you're going to be rude with me because, you know, she's like, Okay, whatever.

She left.

Then she started talking s * * * about me.

And doing all this stuff.

And then you almost laughed.

Yeah.

Because she was -- then she said that she was going to sock me in the face.

I'm like, Okay, whatever.

You're going to hit me.

You're going to hit me.

She's trying to say that she's going to pop me in the mouth.

That's not even cool, because this is b * * * * * * *.

I came here to have fun, not to get f * * * * * * harassed and s * * * like that.

So whatever.

Come on let's go outside.

But also they don't expect me -- accept me for who I am.

So I have to act like a total idiot.

Going around yelling and doing all the stupid stuff, you know?

Where'd you get that?

Is it delicious?

Is it yummy?

So I only have a $5 bill.

Smells like butt.

Anyways, you -- You know what I hid?

Your thing was on my crotch.

I mean, on my knee.

Jenny?

Yes.

Hey can I fall on my face down the stairs?

Yeah I want to.

You have to have ketchup.

Oh, yeah, you have ketchup?

No, no, ketchup.

Oh.

Hiya.

Ow, gosh.

Ow, f * * * my elbow.

I said f * * * on TV.

It's not on TV yet.

Yeah.

Not yet.

Yeah.

You guys got to edit the word f * * * off, okay.

You have to shut up already.

Okay, fine.

You stupid douchebag.

I'm not a douchebag you're a douchebag.

(I left home when I was 17.

I couldn't stand to stay and hear him scream.)

I've just been like angry cuz when I was little and stuff, I mean, like, I used to, like, get picked on all the time because, like, I was -- I just wouldn't talk to nobody.

And I learned, like, if I don't like you, I don't like you.

And if I like you then -- and if you don't like me, whatever.

Thats who I am now.

I don't know.

I don't like hanging out with people around my age.

I feel like enclosed or something.

When I hang out with older people, like it's easier to talk to them and stuff and like they have a wider range of knowledge and stuff.

So how do you think -- like when you're being extra mean to a particular person, how, what do you -- would -- I just make it like a mission to make them cry or something.

I snap, real easily.

I got like a really short fuse and stuff and I don't know, it's just little bitty things irritate me, like immature, like that girl that hangs out with Kale.

I'm not trying to be mean or nothing, but she talks too much and she just -- on my -- I don't know.

She's just is annoying.

Immature.

I don't like people who act immature all the time.

I mean, playing around and stuff it's okay.

But she does it all the time and it just bugs me so bad.

You need to be quiet, it's really loud, we can hear you like, way over there.

I'm sorry, it wasn't even that funny.

You shut the f * * * up.

Shut the f * * * up.

Jimmy.

You all have the light, though.

You all have the light.

What are you guys talking about?

[Overlapping] Can we talk?

I can do like ten different bits of music.

I want music on mine.

Do you?

What kind?

Can I talk to you for a second?

What?

Have a seat.

You're not in trouble.

I just want to talk to you.

You're smiling because of the camera?

No, I'm just -- Don't get mad.

I just want.

Because Daisy was right.

You shouldn't have told --.

Well she don't need to be telling me what to do.

She ain't my mom.

I don't even listen to my mom.

So why does she think I'm going to listen to her?

I know, but do you understand that you just need to respect her and don't get mad at me.

I'm just telling you what, I mean, That's what it needs to be.

Because she's here -- Yeah, but she don't need to be telling me what to do.

I don't listen to nobody.

Yeah but right now, please.

Yes she does.

Because that's her role here.

I mean she's -- Well, if she does, I'm not going to listen to her because she's not my mom.

Well, who will you listen to?

Do you want me to take it on to you from now on?

Do you want Vinny to?

Like who will you listen to and respect?

No, I don't like him.

I like Jennifer, you, and Jackie.

I know.

So if I tell you, please don't make fun of them, or please don't say something rude, then will you listen to me?

Yeah I'm not going to get smart with you or anything.

Because, I don't know, just Daisy irritates me, and Deborah, I can't stand her.

I can understand that you have personality conflicts with them.

So all I'm asking you to do is just to just be respectful to her, to her, and just say, if you're mad at her and you don't like her, that's fine.

That's -- I'm not asking you to.

I'm just asking you to be respectful of her.

If she says -- because she is in a position above you, you know.

So if she says, please don't do this, then, you know, and if you think she's being unfair, then come to me and tell me, you know.

But I'm just asking you to please be respectful when someone asks you to -- okay?

That's it.

Thank you.

Yeah whatever.

Get in there.

Do you think you do anything in particular, like behavior wise, because of being mad about your mom being away?

No, just.

I don't know.

Whenever, like, somebody makes me mad, like I'll keep it in for a minute, but after like so long, like little bitty things will build up and build up and build up and a little bitty thing will just take me off.

And I will go off about something dumb, like somebody threw like a pen at me or something.

I will go off so bad because I'll just let it build up and build up and build up.

The whole goal of this program is for us to have a great time, but if you're bringing junk in from outside, then you're not going to have a great time because we're going to spend time doing discipline instead of spending time doing scenes and having a ball.

So, Jenna, what what are some of your thoughts on the situation that's happening right now between Pearl and Jenny?

It's actually between Reanna and Harley, and she wants to keep on getting smart with people.

I never got smart with anybody.

And you think you know everything, Jenny.

I never called her since.

I haven't talked to Margarita.

I will slap you across your face.

Do you not know that?

You're not -- Jenny.

I need to go smoke a cigarette or something because I will slap this little f * * * * * * bitch.

Jenny.

Jenny.

You think I'm playing?

Jenny, Jenny.

I want you in particular, Jenny, more than anybody else in this room to be able to let go of what happens outside this room when you walk in.

Tell her to tell the truth.

Tell her to stop lying.

This is not it.

How was she supposed to tell anybody that?

She was locked up with her.

You wasn't there.

You ain't in this.

No, but I've talked to her in the last six months.

You are not in this.

You just don't even need to talk to me, okay?

Neither are you.

It's between us two.

Us two.

You want to f * * * * * * -- You little bitch, you keep on doing s * * * I'm going to slap you across your f * * * * * * face.

You think I'm f * * * * * * playing with you?

All right, come on Jenny.

Come outside the room.

Come outside the room.

Hey, Jenna, do you mind going?

Yeah.

Okay.

Thanks.

So.

Okay --.

I like Jenny a lot.

Like when she's not around everybody else she's a real friend.

And, like, when she's around everybody else, she tries to act tough and everything.

But that's just because of how hard her life has been.

She wants people to think of her as a different person.

For her to stand up and go after Reanna I almost stood up and hit her in her face and it -- I have a lot of self-control.

So that's why I didn't.

I'm not playing with her.

She thinks I'm playing.

She needs to quit talking to me like that.

People don't disrespect me.

I've been disrespected all my f * * * * * * life.

Nobody's going to do that to me anymore.

Can you just tell me what happened?

I don't understand the scenario, please.

I just want to know what happened.

She was -- she called my best friend Harley a snitch.

And I don't like people disrespecting my friends.

Wait.

Go back, go back.

Go back.

Who did?

Reanna called my best friend Harley, a snitch.

And I don't want her disrespecting my friend like that.

And Reanna is like a little -- she starts stuff all the time.

And she lied about it.

She -- my best friend Bree told me and she was locked up with her.

Okay.

So go back, tell me, tell me exactly what happened and what the snitching is about.

And like the whole -- I want to hear the whole story.

Okay.

Whenever Reanna was locked up with Bree.

Reanna had a picture of Harley.

And she said, I don't even know why I'm friends with that snitch.

She was like, Bree was like, what?

And she texted me when she got out, she texted Harley and me and she was like, You know, she called you a snitch.

And I just told her she would tell the truth and just tell Harley that she's sorry about it.

We would drop it, and she wants to keep on running her mouth about it.

And then she started disrespecting me, and then Pearl started disrespecting me, and she wasn't even in this.

And then she thinks that she's cute -- How did Pearl get involved in it?

She said, Well, you guys just need to shut up and go on somewhere.

I don't know.

I don't like being disrespected like that.

I understand.

My mom lost us because she kept on selling drugs and then she -- I guess she sold some to a snitch or something, and they snitched her out.

Is -- do you think snitching is like a really big part of the culture here that everybody's afraid to -- Yeah, I don't like people like that.

People like what?

Like snitches and stuff, but I don't like them.

People like if you can't trust somebody, then I don't even want to talk to them.

I have all kinds of fun stuff planned.

Well, if she would just stop lying and just admit to it and tell Harley that she's sorry I would drop it.

But it's not going to happen in here.

It's not going to happen in front of everybody.

Well, then she needs to pull her aside or something, because I'm not going to have people do that to my friends.

Harley is like, I don't want to say this about her because it's mean, but it's true.

But she's like she's weaker than most people.

Like, she can't stand up for herself.

So I do it for her.

I understand that.

I understand that.

I know it's important to you.

I know it is.

But you can't be a kid anywhere.

There's nowhere in this city, on this planet right now that you're -- that you can be a kid.

Will you at least let yourself be a kid for a little while in this room?

I guess.

People are afraid of you.

You know, they are.

I don't think anybody thinks that your words are an idle threat.

I think people take that pretty seriously.

You protect yourself.

You have a really -- you have learned a very good mechanism to protect yourself.

And you have a really big wall that you protect yourself with.

And I understand why.

And there's every reason that you have learned why you should have it there.

I'm not going to tell you to take down your wall.

That's ridiculous.

I can't.

It's been there for a long time.

And maybe later in your life, when you feel more safe, you'll be able to.

And I'm telling you that that is what happened with me.

I eventually was able to have good, good friends, and I was able to let it go.

So for the next three days, today, Friday and Monday, let's just give you a little bit of time to be a kid.

Okay?

I really do love you.

I really do care about you.

I really do hope that everything comes together for you and it works out.

I understand.

(Voices.

Voices outside my window.

Louder as the day --) I tell you what you have always, always made me laugh.

Like in a heartbeat.

Like I f * * * * * *, I love you so much.

Like I was watching this footage.

Oh, my gosh.

Oh, my gosh.

It's so funny, Jenny.

It's 2008.

It's the first day of the camp, and you come in a little bit late because the person driving you picked everybody up late.

So you roll in and within maybe the first hour you start a fight with Pearl.

And -- Oh Pearl.

She was such a mean, little, snobby girl.

And so I don't even remember what you fought with her about.

And so you wanted to leave and so you're leaving.

And I'm like, What?

Somebody's like, Yeah, Jenny's walking home, she's leaving.

I was like, Oh, no.

She can't go home.

I love her.

She's not allowed to leave.

I was like, It wouldn't be any fun if you weren't here.

Just please stay.

And so you actually did stay, which was awesome.

And it was true.

It wouldn't have been any fun without you, actually.

So I'm really glad you stayed.

That was awesome.

Honestly like at the time, you know, I was going through a lot and I kind of felt like a motherly connection with you.

And I loved that.

Like, you made me feel safe and I could talk to you about anything.

And I didn't know.

I still don't have my mom.

So that's what our bond is, I think.

It's motherly for me.

I love it.

Yeah.

(That big, pretty city.)

So do you stay in touch with anybody there?

No, actually, Rachel Downs and I don't even like each other anymore.

She became some weird little snotty bitch, so I was just like, whatever dude.

Me and Rachel are like that.

But she's not really trustworthy.

Why?

I told her, like, a big secret about me.

And she told Jake, Keith, and her little brother.

It made me mad.

Well, what was it?

I can't say.

Well, I told her one other one.

Like whenever I was, like, younger, I used to do that kind of stuff to myself.

I did too, that's what I -- I did that for a long time.

Yeah.

And, like, she went and told, like, everybody and I was, I was going to beat her up for it, but she's so much smaller than me.

I don't think I could do it.

I'd feel bad.

I used to cut myself all the time, and it's probably why I think I started smoking cigarettes when I was 12, which I'm not happy about or proud of or anything.

That's why I do it, because like I don't do this stuff no more, like that kind of stuff.

I did it on my ankles too.

That was my ex ex ex ex ex ex ex-boyfriend.

Why do you think you did?

Why do you think you cut?

To relieve stress and sometimes I really like wish I could really like do it, but like when I did that, I wanted to do it like so bad.

Like I really wanted it to happen.

And it didn't bleed very much.

For what to happen?

For like me to die.

Like I wanted it to happen because I was, like, angry.

What was happening?

Like I was moving in -- I moved in with my mom, but she was in prison, still.

So I was living with her boyfriend, Chris, which he's really awesome.

But he was just -- I was the only person in the house that would clean and I couldn't go nowhere.

I was grounded for like four months for stupid little bitty things, and I was just bored with my life and I was just getting angry and angry and angrier.

And just his son was just so mean, he'd like -- I'd be in my room, like, I had like a room the size of, like a big closet.

And, like, he would come in there while I'm getting dressed and, like, do my door and, like, hit me with a slingshot and stuff, like, full with like batteries and grapes and stuff.

I had, like, welts and stuff, it hurt.

I did that last night with a belt.

Who did it?

Me and one of my friends.

We were playing around with it.

It hurts.

(It's not easy to rise up when you're staring down.)

What is so tough to handle?

Smart girls.

I'm not smart.

Yeah you are.

How do you know?

Because I can tell.

Whatever.

I can tell.

(Another blank.

Tomorrow, when you no longer own your own reflection.

Those thieves have taken you and all they've left is questions.)

You have to give yourself a break.

I can't.

And everyone else too.

You can.

I'm doing something right now.

(I won't let you feel alone.

I won't let you feel alone.

I won't let you feel alone.)

My friend Tyler.

He walks up to me and he smacks me in the face he's like, Clarissa you're so freaking stupid.

At the time I had an H for hate on my leg, you know, and I was wearing a pair of shorts and he's seen it.

I'm like, Why did you smack me?

Like, I seen your ankle?

And he's like, If you don't stop cutting, then I'm not going to be your friend.

And he's like, you know, my friends are like my world.

So I quit cutting and we're still friends.

Where do you think you picked it up from?

Did you learn it from somebody or was it just come natural?

I just -- there's no other way because I didn't want to smoke anymore.

I didn't want to do drugs, didn't want to do anything.

And I remember there was a razor in the bathroom.

I'm like.

You know, maybe if I cut myself open, maybe the blood will release my pain.

And it didn't so -- And, um, I sent Tyler a thing on his MySpace that says, I can't bleed for you no more.

I can't -- I can't bleed for you no more.

I can finally live my life without you in it so.

And I don't need a razor to ease my pain.

I got friends and you ain't in my life no more.

So if you want to step up and be a man, then maybe, maybe I will forgive you for what you said to me.

So yeah.

Like a while back ago, like truthfully...this might sound weird, but to release my pain, my my pain or whatever, my emotions I used to, like, pick off my toenails and fingernails, like, all the way off.

And my mom and dad told me how to cope myself.

And, I mean, if it wasn't for them, I'd probably have no fingernails right now.

And I mean, it's just really great how no matter how many friends will leave me at school, I always have my best friends in the home.

When I get depressed, I'll just draw how I feel and then just put the words how I feel around it and then tear it up and just throw it in the trash.

And that's really been helping me.

And I'm just hoping people, like when I tell people to do that, I'm hoping they'll do it because Jessica, the one that's living with me right now, four of her friends have committed suicide just this year.

So I'm just really hoping that when I tell somebody to do that, they'll just try it out because there's better ways to do it than hurting yourself.

(Disengage the mind.

Turn out almost all the lights.

Blink in focus eyes.

Stop talking.

Start walking.)

You want to be a lawyer?

Go to school.

Read a book.

Get out.

Get out.

Graduate from school Jenny.

I can't.

I'm not smart enough.

You are.

You are.

I'm really not.

You are.

I've -- I've taught people.

I read what you wrote.

You're smart.

I got kicked out of school whenever I was in seventh grade, in the eighth grade.

And then freshman year I had to go to BCA.

Jenny, you are who you say you are.

If you tell yourself you're stupid.

Guess what?

But it's like --.

You tell yourself you're smart.

Guess what?

I don't know a whole bunch of big words, though.

That's okay.

You can learn them.

You're smart.

You can learn them.

Okay.

We're going to move on.

What do you see yourself really doing with the talents and stuff that you have because you could go either way?

I don't know.

I don't want to make up my mind yet.

I don't want to be all serious at this age.

I like being, like, weird and funny and, I like being unpredictable.

Actually, that's like, my favorite thing to do.

Nobody knows what I'm going to say.

I'm not kidding.

I'm just going to stay there for a little bit.

Just stay at the cross.

Like, I just want to, like, choose later.

I can see you going to college.

Can you see -- I can't.

You can't see you going to college?

I'm not a serious person, so I can't, like, see myself being serious and settling down and going to college and stuff.

I can't see myself doing that because I'm not a serious person.

I just laugh at everything.

So what can you see yourself doing, do you think?

Just chilling until I like, can calm down a little bit, because right now I don't want to be all serious and stuff, but like maybe when I'm older, when I graduate high school.

Yeah.

What do you think you're going to try to do about your anger issues?

Usually when I'm really mad, I'm really, really, really mad where like I'll get so mad sometimes I'll start crying.

I'll usually write it down.

And recently, like I got this like notebook thing that I write in and like I started talking about Jackie and I think how she's my role model and I gave her that page.

So I'm going to start calling Jackie and stuff when I get mad because she can calm me down because I have respect for her and I can't really talk to like anybody else but Jennifer and Jackie.

I say it's progress, not perfection.

It's the effort and the trying that's important about anger, not about being perfect, because being perfect is not going to happen, but the trying because you know, you've gotten the hard breaks and it's not fair and that's why you're really angry.

And, you know, the one thing I'd hate to see is I'd hate to see you turn your anger in on yourself.

I see you turn it on other people.

That's where you use your anger.

Can you see that?

Sometimes when I'm really irritated and stressed out I will.

Once we're on the van, let's not smoke.

It wasn't on the van.

No, once you get in the van of the program, no smoking until you're off the van and at home.

Okay?

That's just -- Tara has asked that's the way it is and we'd appreciate it if you wouldn't.

Then I'm going to be a bitch all day.

Let her know that.

That's fine.

You got me down here, Ruth.

Jennifer!

No.

No.

Baby, come on.

No.

Baby, come on.

I cant keep up with you.

I love you so much.

F * * * * * * hate her!

I love you so much.

I'm so sorry.

She wanted out.

Now you want the pain.

I know.

Now you want the pain.

I'm just getting tired of all the drama.

It's just.

It -- it's just so immature.

I realize it's, like, so immature.

Just kids just, like, da da da da da.

But the only reason why I got into them three fights is because they tried to flirt with my boyfriend, and I'm very overprotective.

Like, I get jealous very easily.

You have always been able to take care of yourself, you know, like.

Exactly.

I'm a survivor.

Yeah.

What -- do you miss -- like, do you feel like you had a childhood?

Not at all.

Right.

That's why I choose not to work.

So that you can have a childhood now?

I do what I want.

No one is the boss of me.

S * * *.

My friends are f * * * * * *, they're going, they're going crazy.

What are they doing?

What are they doing?

What are they doing?

She likes my potty mouth.

I'm not trying to cuss.

I don't -- f * * * you, bitch.

Get out of here.

I'll slap you in your mouth.

Come here, you want me to show her how I abuse you?

Yeah.

This is one of my best friends right now.

He's gay, going through a divorce.

His name's Daniel.

Hi.

Hi Daniel.

We had a threesome.

[Laughing] Hi.

Nice to meet you.

Not us three, but me, him, and another girl.

Yeah.

Daniel is uh, he's -- he's gay gay.

He likes peepee.

[Laughing] You know what, Jenny?

I got to tell you.

It broke my heart.

Just different -- watching different people.

It did.

Yeah.

Like about how bad off they are now.

I'm the only one that's never shot up, never done heroin.

Like I smoke weed and I take Xanax and I smoke cigarettes.

Oh, my gosh.

It's so good to see you.

You have no idea how happy it makes me.

Oh, man.

Okay, well, I'll say goodbye, but I'll talk to you on message.

Cool.

(I wouldn't say I'm prepared for this.

Well, tomorrow I will miss.)

On the next episode of Girl Unscripted.

He was like my only friend that ever came to my birthday parties and stuff like that.

I mean, and I always thought that he was still going to be that nice little boy that I thought he was.

But I guess it wasn't the fairy tale that I wanted it to be, you know?

And every time I see him, I burst into tears.

I don't know why.

Because I feel stupid for letting him get to me like that.

I feel stupid for letting him talk me into all that kind of crap and I knew I should have waited.

I'm 14 and he's 17.

We'll go out places or we'll stay home and watch movies together.

I know where they are all the time.

Yeah.

And if they're not here.

They're at his house with his parents.

Mom or dad.

So I pretty much know nothing's going to happen.

Yeah.

I had sex at 13.

What do you think the most painful part of being a teenager right now is?

The boys.

The boys.

Truthfully.

(Play back in my head.

Everyday words you said.

It's time to go.

It's time to go.

We loved and we let go, and now, it's time.)