CHRISTA WITTMIER: OKAY.

LAST YEAR THIS TIME, I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BREAST CANCER.

STAGE FOUR.

I HAVE A PHOTO OF YOU SMILING ON A BROWN COUCH.

I HAVE ANOTHER ONE WHERE YOU'RE LIFTING ME UP TO MAKE A BASKET WITH A BASKETBALL.

FROM THESE PICTURES AND FROM WHAT I REMEMBER WRITING.. WAS YOUNG, THAT WE WERE VERY CLOSE.

I LOVE YOU.

I'M ALSO A WRITER HERE IN HAWAII, WHERE I LIVE.

I'VE HAD A NIGHTLIFE COLUM..

THE WEEKLY FOR FIVE YEARS AND NOW A TECH COLUMN IN ANO.. WEEKLY PAPER.

I REALLY COULDN'T HAVE ASKED FOR A BETTER LI.. CHRISTA'S FATHER GARY CURTIS: CHRISTA, YOU HAVE STIRRED SO MANY EMOTIONS WITHIN ME.

I DON'T KNOW WHERE..

I WILL START, THOUGH, BY SAYING THAT IT'S WONDERFUL TO HEAR FROM YOU HOW IN THE WORLD YOU SUMMARIZE 36 YEARS AND A FEW PARAGRAPHS.

FIRST, THO.. WANT TO SAY HOW MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU.

HEARING ABOU..

ILLNESS YOU EXPERIENCED.

HOW I WISHED I COU..

THERE FOR YOU.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THE BREAKUP OF A FAMILY IS A TERRIBLE THI.. AND YET IT BRINGS ME JOY TO KNOW THAT IT DID NOT BRING YOU DOWN, BUT MADE YOU STRONG AND DETERMINED AND AN OVERCOMER.

CHRISTA'S FATHER GARY CURTIS: AND NOW YOU'RE A WOMAN W..

LIFETIME OF JOY AND PAIN AND I REALLY KNOW NOTHING ABOUT IT.

YOU'RE RIGHT THAT WE WERE VERY CLOSE WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG, AND I WILL ALWAYS REGRET LOSING THAT.

YOU'RE ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I PRAY THAT YOU WILL HAVE MANY, MANY DAYS TO FULFILL ALL THE PASSION THAT IS WITHIN YOU.

SO.

YEAH.

I MEAN, THAT'S, I GUESS, LIKE THE IDEAL ANSWER YOU GET FROM YOUR DAD.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: AT FIRST, I WAS SCARED.

YOU KNOW, EVERYBODY'S SC..

BUT IT WAS SO EASY.

AND I ACTUALLY SURPRISED MYSELF WITH HOW WELL I DID.

I DIDN'T GET THE TOP OF MY CLASS, BUT I WAS THE TOP FEMALE.

I GOT TO PICK BETWEEN PUERTO RICO, GUAM OR ITALY.

CAN YOU GUESS WHERE I PICKED?

I WENT TO ALLIED FORCES, SOUTHERN EUROPE IN NAPLES, ITALY.

STIL.. MY WORKING WHITES EVERY DAY.

MY BOSS WAS GREEK.

I HARDLY WORKED WITH ANY AMERICANS.

AND I WAS, YOU KNOW, WORKING AT A HELP DESK FIXING DESKTOP COMPUTER ISSUES.

I JUST HAD A KNACK FOR GETTING THINGS DONE VERY QUICKLY.

I KIND OF GOT A REPUTATION AND, YOU KNOW, I'D SHOW UP IN THE OFFICE AN..

THERE'S A LOT OF PEOPLE AND THEY'D BE LIKE, C.W.

HERE, SUPER C.W.

AND THAT'S HOW I GOT MY NICKNAME.

I DEPLOYED TO SARAJEVO WHEN NATO TOOK OVER FOR THE U.N. AND A LOT OF THESE CRITICAL SERVER ISSUES THAT I WAS ABLE TO FIX QUICKLY ACTUALLY SAVE LIVES.

I GOT A REALLY BIG MEDAL LEAVING THAT COMMAND, THE JOINT SERVICE COMMENDATION MEDAL, AFTER .. YEARS IN EUROPE.

I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO TRY A SHIP.

AND SO I WENT TO THE USS MILIUS, WHICH IS AN AEGIS CLASS DESTROYER OUT OF SAN DIEGO.

I WAS PRETTY SCARED.

I MEAN, I HAVE HEARD HORROR STORIES ABOUT GOING TO THE FLEET.

IT WAS.. AMAZING.

IT WAS LIKE SUMMER CAMP FOR GROWN UPS AND THE SERVICE.

YOU KNOW, I HAD DONE 11 YEARS AND IT WAS A BIG DECISION.

I KNOW I TOOK SOME TIME TO REALLY THINK ABOUT IT.

BUT THE THE ONLY COMMAND THEY WERE OFFERING ME WAS WASHINGTON STATE.

AND I WAS LIKE, I'M..

THERE.

I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK.

I WANT TO SEE MORE OR STAY HERE.

AND THEY'RE LIKE, CALL BACK IN A FEW MONTHS.

AND THEN YOU'D PULL INTO SOME BEAUTIFUL LIBERTY PORT LIKE AUSTRALIA OR SAIPAN, HAWAII.

SOMETHING ABOUT HAWAII.

IT PULLED ME IN.

NOW THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT, I MAYBE CAN SAY THAT THERE IS AN ENERGY HERE.

EVERY WEEKEND I WAS BUYING BOTTLE SERVICE AT A HOTEL ROOM, A NEW OUTFIT.

WELL, EVERYBODY LIKED ME BECAUSE I WAS ALWAYS OUT.

I LIKED IT.

I LIKED THE AREA AND THE LOCAL P.. YOU KNOW, I WAS SO ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT SHARING EVERYTHING.

I WAS MAKING A BLOG, UPLOADING MY DIGITAL PHOTOS THAT I TOOK.

PEOPLE LOVED THAT THEY COULD GO ONLINE AND SEE PICTURES OF THEMSELVES OR LIKE, LURK THROUGH OTHER PEOPLE THAT MAYBE THEY'RE INTERESTED IN.

AND AS SOMEBODY WHO ISN'T EVEN FROM HONOLULU.. BE CALLED THE NIGHTLIFE QUEEN, IT JUST MADE ME FEEL SO WELCOME.

IT KIND OF BLEW UP.

YOU KNOW, I HAD THOUSANDS OF FRIENDS NOW, AND I DID..

REALIZE HOW POPULAR THAT IT GOT THROUGH THAT BLOG.

THE EDITOR OF THE HONOLULU WEEKLY VERY HUMBLY ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO TAKE OVER THERE WITH THEI.. DEATH COLUMN.

AND I WAS LIKE, OF COURSE I'LL TAKE IT.

I HAVE BEEN APPLYING FOR LIKE EVEN CALENDAR EDITOR JOBS, AND NOBODY'S EVEN CALLING ME BACK.

THE COLUMN IN THE BLOG TOGETHER, I WAS REALLY PROUD OF IT.

I'VE BEEN PLAYING MU.. HAWAII, BUT I'VE BEEN PASSIONATE ABOUT MUSIC AND PLAYING MUSIC MY ENTIRE LIFE.

I WAS ALWAYS THAT PERSON IN THE CORNER OF THE ROOM, A PARTY WITH THE PLAYLIST, PICKING OUT THE SONGS BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE THE EFFECT THAT IT HAS ON THE MOOD.

CONTROLLING THE VIBE OF A ROOM IS THE BIGGEST LUXURY OF BEING ABLE TO PLAY MUSIC AS A DEEJAY.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I'M SO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW.

SO OPENING FOR THOMAS JACK.

WELL, FIRST OF ALL, EVEN TO BE ON THE BILL WIT.. IS ONE THING.

YOU KNOW, LIKE, THAT'S SUCH A GREAT OPPORTUNITY.

I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS SET MY WHOLE LIFE.

I JUST NEVER KNEW THAT I WOULD HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO PLAY IT.

I CAN'T WAIT.

I'M REALLY EXCITED.

I'M SCARED AND I'M NERVOUS.

AND I HOPE I DON'T LET ANYBODY DOWN.

I DON'T KNOW.

I'M JUST EXCITED.

WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY?

I'M TRYING TO THINK WHAT ELSE TO SAY.

I'M SO EXCITED.

PERSON OFF CAMERA: SO THIS IS GOING TO BE YOUR LAST SET FOR A BIT.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: BUT WE CAN TALK ABOUT THAT IF Y..

PERSON OFF CAMERA: NO, NO, NO CHRISTA WITTMIER: OKAY.. YEAH.

TO SEE WHAT YOU'RE PLANNING ON DOING AFTERWARDS AND HOW.. CHRISTA WITTMIER: OKAY.

SO THIS IS THIS IS PRE.. MY LAST OFFICIAL PUBLIC SHOW BEFORE I GO INTO TREATMENT AND FOR CANCER.

AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO FEEL.

I DON'T KNOW HOW SICK I'M GOING TO GET.

I COULD JUST BE FINE AND KEEP GOING.

BUT I JUST NEEDED TO BE ABLE TO CUT IT OFF AND TAKE A HIATUS AND CONCENTRATE ON GETTING BETTER.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: SO IT IS IN MY LUNGS.

IT'S NOT IN MY LIVER.

I AM STAGE FOUR.

BUT..

I HAVE A 30 PERCENT CHANCE WITH CHEMO.

I'M GOING TO GET ANOTHER FEW OPINIONS, SEE WHAT'S UP, TRY TO MAKE A DECISION BY FRIDAY, START MY TREATMENTS AND WE'RE GOING TO GET BETTER.

WE'RE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS.

WHEN YOU WHEN YOU'RE DIAGNOSED AT A LATE STAGE, ESPECIALLY STAGE FOUR, YOU KNOW, THE PROGNOSIS IS MAYBE A COUPLE OF YEARS.

THE DOCTORS, THEY HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS KIND OF STUFF.

THIS IS WHAT THE STUDIES SHOW.

THIS IS HOW THE DISEASE PROGRESSES.

BUT THAT MIGHT NOT NECESSARILY BE THE CASE FOR EVERY INDIVIDUAL.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: THE STAR OF HONOLULU.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: YOU ARE.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: SUPER CW.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THIS.. AMAZING.

WE'RE VERY ..

LIVING HERE AND BE ABLE TO DO THIS PARTY.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: IF I HAD TO DESCRIBE CHRISTA IN ONE WORD, IT WOULD BE ENERGY.

AN AMOUNT OF ENERGY THAT'S ALMOST KIN..

DISTURBING AT FIRST, ESPECIALLY IF YOU DON'T KNOW HER.

FRIEND OF CHRI.. TINKERBELL.

LIKE SHE'S JUST THE MOST POSITIVE, JITTERY ENERGY THAT YOU COULD POSSIBLY PUT INTO A LITTLE BOTTLE.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: THE WOMAN IN CHARGE OF IT ALL, CHRISTA• CHRISTA WITTMIER: HELLO• FRIEND OF CHRISTA: I.. CHRISTA, AND SHE'S AN AMAZING PERSON AND SHE ALWAYS IS INFECTIOUS.

SHE .. CAN'T EVER BE SAD AROUND THIS WOMAN.

ALWAYS THE COOLEST CHICK.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: IT .. YOU WANT TO PARTY AND DANCE AND SMILE AND LAUGH.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: THE THING ABOUT HER IS, IT'S A..

ALWAYS JUST WANTS TO HELP PEOPLE.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE HAVE THIS WOMAN TO .. FOR THE BEST PARTY EXPERIENCE HERE ON VACATION OR WHEN THEY LIVE HERE.

THANK YOU.

SUPER CW.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: WHEN I FIRST, LIKE, KNEW ABOUT HER, SHE WAS LIKE THIS LEGEND.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: I FEEL LIKE I'M A PRETTY MOTIVATED PERSON.

BUT, YOU KNOW, COMPARED ..

I'M NOTHING.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: AND WHEN WHEN SHE SETS HER MIND TO DO SOMETHING, SHE DOES IT.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: THEY DON'T CALL HER SUPER FOR NOTHING.

OLENA HEU: TELL US A LITTL.. ABOUT HOW MUSIC BECAME A P..

YOUR LIFE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: FOR ME, IT'S SINCE I WAS VERY LITTLE, FROM EARLIEST MEMORIES.

MY MOM HAD LIKE THE RECORD PLAYER THAT WE WEREN'T ALLOWED TO TOUCH.. WOULD ALWAYS TOUCH WHEN I WASN'T ALLOWED AND LIKE PLAY ALL .. MUSIC.

SO I JUST REMEMBER SLEEPING IN ON THE WEEKENDS AND HEARING HER PLAY HER MUSIC.

AND IT WAS..

ALWAYS PART OF MY LIFE SINCE FOREVER.

SO IT'S GREAT TO BE ABLE TO DO IT NOW AND PLAYING MUSIC FOR PEOPLE AND KIND OF GIVE THEM THE EXPERIENCE THAT I'VE ALWAYS HAD.

PERSON OFF CAMERA: NOTHING ELSE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: PEOPLE ASKING, NO, I DIDN'T GET MY BOOBS REMOVED TODAY.

I JUST GOT MY PORT FOR THE CHEMO.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THIS IS THE MOST SPECIAL MANGO EVER.

OH I'M SO EXCITE..

EXCITED.

THE BEST MANGO.

SO GOOD, RIGHT.

NURSE OFF CAMERA AND CHRISTA TALKING: YOU DON'T HAVE TO RUSH.

I CAN TELL BY YOUR BODY LANGUAGE.

YOU'RE NOT.

I DON'T.

READY.

YEAH.

WELL, LIKE, I MEAN.

OKAY.

YOU CAN TAKE YOUR TIME.

I'VE BEEN HAVING, LIKE, .. DON'T WANNA LIKE• NURSE: YOU DON'T WANT TO STRESS OVER THIS I CAN ALREADY TELL, AND LET'S NOT RUSH INTO IT.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: IS WAITING GONNA MAKE IT WORSE?

I MEAN, HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU THINK THAT I CAN WAIT?

NURSE: I'LL TELL YOU RIGHT NOW IS NOT A GOOD TIME FOR YOU.

I DON'T THINK YOU'RE MENTA.. READY, THAT YOUR STILL•BODY LANGUAGE, IT'S, YOU KNOW I FEEL LIKE YOU'RE NOT READY YET.

DR. KEVIN GIBSON, NA..

THINGS WERE VERY DIFFICU.. HAD A VERY BAD PROGNOSIS, A VERY AGGRESSIVE CANCER METASTATIC, AND THAT'S EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO TAKE ALL IN.

IT HITS YOU LIKE A MACK TRUCK AND YOU'RE THROWN A MILLION DIFFERENT THINGS AT ONCE.

WHAT DO I DO?

AND LOTS OF WELL-INTENDED FRIENDS WHO HAVE LOTS OF GREAT IDEAS FOR YOU.

BUT THAT'S DIFFICULT.

YOU'RE FACING YOUR MORTALITY.

DR. OZUA, PSYCHIATRIST: I THINK SOMETIMES INITIALLY WHEN THEY GET DIAGNOSED, IT'S THE SHOCK OF IT.

IT'S THE FEAR.

SO MORT.. ISSUES COME INTO PLAY.

I THINK ALSO THEN AT VARIOUS POI..

TREATMENT, OTHER KINDS OF EMOTIONAL RESPONSE..

FLASH HANSEN, FRIEND: IT WAS NOT A GOOD PROGNOSIS AT ALL.

AND, YOU KNOW, WE BOTH HAD TO PROCESS IT TOGETHER.

RIGHT.

YOU'RE JUST HEARING ALL THIS, THESE CR..

THINGS AND THE WAY THAT SHE HANDLED IT, YOU KNOW, IN REAL TIME AS IT WAS, SHE WAS HE..

IT WAS IT WAS BEAUTIFUL IN A WAY.

IT WAS JUST LIKE THIS GRACE UNDER PRESSURE THAT, YOU KNOW, SHE WAS CLEARLY SCARED.

BUT IT WAS JUST LIKE IMMEDIATELY LIKE, I'M JUST GOING TO BEAT THIS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I DIDN'T POST ABOUT MY DIAGNOSIS OR EVEN TELL TOO MANY PEOPLE.

I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE THEM SEE ME DIFFERENTLY.

I DIDN'T WANT TO BUM ANYBODY OUT.

I WAS REALLY CONCERNED ABOUT, YOU KNOW, JUST RUINING EVERYBODY ELSE'S DAY.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I KNOW MINE'S RUINED, BUT I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO DRAG ANYBODY DOWN WITH .. AND IT WAS A LONG TIME BEFORE I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO MAKE A HEARTFELT STATEMENT.

YOU KNOW, ON MY BLOG, I WAS SO HEALTHY.

I WAS ALWAYS EXERCISING, ALWAYS SMILING, ALWAYS AROUND.

I HAD THE KIND OF ENERGY THAT PEOPLE WOULD BE LIKE, HOW DO YOU HAVE SO MUCH ENERGY FOR EVERYBODY TO READ THAT IT WAS SHOCKING.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: FROM THAT, I JUST WAS FLOODED WITH SO MUCH LOVE AND SUPPORT THAT I, I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF THAT, LIKE I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH STRANGERS EVEN COULD CARE ABOUT ME.

I THINK PART OF THAT WAS JUST ME FEELING, YOU KNOW, LIKE, WHY WOULD THEY CARE?

WHY WOULD ANYBODY CARE ABOUT ME?

IT WASN'T UNTIL I STARTED MY TREATMENT, I WENT TO MY BLOG AND WROTE A POST.

IT WAS PRETTY DETAILED.

AND I BASICALLY JUST ASKED THAT PEOPLE, IF THEY SEE ME, TO NOT BRING IT UP.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.

IF I'.. MEANS I'M FEELING OKAY AND I WANT TO BE ENJOYING MY LIFE.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABO..

THEY HEAR CANCER AND THAT'S IT.

THAT MEANS SHE'S GOING TO DIE.

CANCER SUPPORT GROUP SPEAKERS: AND THE ONLY THING THA..

KNEW ABOUT STAGE FOUR WAS THAT YOU DIE WHEN YOU GET STAGE FOUR.

THAT THAT'S THE STAGE BEFORE YOU DIE.

THERE'S NO STAGE FIVE.

THERE ARE VERY FEW OF THESE GROUPS IN THE UNITED STATES.

THERE ARE EXTREMELY FEW STAGE FOUR GROUPS.

AND AND THAT'S JUST A TRAGEDY.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: PEOPLE WOULD COME UP TO ME WITH THIS LOOK LIKE, I'M SO SORRY.

AND AND I'M JUST LIKE, HEY, I'M DEEJAY..

RIGHT NOW.

I MEAN, I'M PRETTY GOOD, BUT HOW CAN SHE DIE?

LOOK AT HER.

SHE LOOKS GREAT.

THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE REALLY SAY THE..

THEY'RE LIKE, GOSH, SHE LOOKS SO GREAT.

THEY SAY THAT ALL THE TIME.

EVEN WHEN I'M HAVING LIKE, A REALLY GOOD DAY, THEY'LL.. LIKE, GOD, SHE LOOKS SO GOOD.

AND I'M LIKE, WELL, THANKS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I MEAN I HAD NEVER HAD ANY FAMILY MEM..

AFFECTED OR FRIENDS OR COLLEAGUES.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: ANYBODY WHO HAS A COCONUT TREE IS MY BEST FRIEND.

.. SOMETHING THAT WAS IN MY AWARENESS.

I'M KIND OF DIGGING THE TOP BUN.

SIDE!

I LIKE TOP.

SIDE IS TOO CANCER PATIENT.

SO, THIS IS THE WIG WITH WRAP OPTION.

AH, YEAH, BABY.

I CAN'T EVEN TELL IT'S A WIG.

FRIEND IN BACKGROUND: I KNOW.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: WEAR A BEANIE, COOL GIRL, LONG HAIR.

LISA WITTMIER, CHRISTA'S SISTER: IT WAS OUT OF THE BLUE.

I MEAN, SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN SO HEALT..

IN SHAPE AND ACTIVE, AND SHE JUST LEADS A GOOD FULL LIFE.

LIKE SOMEBODY LIKE THAT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO GET SICK, RIGHT?

I MEAN, NOBODY THINKS CANCER'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO THEM.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THEY'LL TELL YOU YOUR LIFE EXPECTANCY.. YOU KNOW, THAT'S UP TO YOU.

IF YOU WANT TO ACCEPT THAT.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THAT'S ME.

LOOK, THAT'S ME.

LOOK AT T..

SMILE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I WAS BORN IN SPOKANE, WASHINGTON, AND GREW UP IN TACOMA.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: SO, YOU KNOW, YOU DON'T GIVE A BABY LIPSTICK ON HALLOWEEN AND SAY, JUST PAINT YOUR FACE, WHICH IS EXACTL..

I DID WHEN I WAS JUST GOING TO PUT THIS ALL OVER MY FACE.

VERY HUMBLE UPBRINGING.

MY MOM WAS A SINGLE PARENT.

MY SISTER AND I WERE ABOUT A YEAR APART.

WE WERE VERY CLOSE.

MY MOM ACTUALLY DRESSED US .. TILL WE WERE MAYBE 13 YEARS OLD.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: LOOKEY, WE'RE SO SMILEY WITH OUR FARRAH FAWCETT HAIR MOM.

MY MY SISTER OF THE TWO OF US, SHE WAS JUST THE BEAUTIFUL BLOND AND I WAS KIND OF LIKE THE AWKWARD LITTLE BRUNETTE.

WE WEREN'T MORMO.. WE WERE•I WAS JUST I WAS HAVING TROUBLE WITH SCIENCE AND MATH, SO I TOOK UP EVERY EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITY THAT I COULD.

I WAS CLASS PRESIDENT.

I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL.

I WAS IN THE DEBATE CLUB, THE BAND.

I PICKED THE SNARE DRUM.

IT JUST LOOKED COOL, YOU KNOW?

AND THER.. THAT THAT PLAYED THAT INSTRUMENT, WHICH I LIKED.

I WAS FRIENDS WITH EVERYBODY, BU..

DIDN'T REALLY FIT IN ANYWHERE.

MUSIC WAS THE BIGGEST .. ME.

I WAS REALLY DRIVEN TO JUST DO AS GOOD AS I COULD.

THEY HAD ME IN THE SENIOR BAND WHEN I WAS, YOU KNOW, JUST A FRESHMAN.

I WAS IN THE TACOMA YOUTH SYMPHONY ALL THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL.

I EVEN GOT A S.. MUSIC FROM WASHINGTON STATE UNIVERSITY.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: AS THE TESTS WENT ON AND SHE FOUND OUT, YOU KNOW,.. WAS.

THAT'S SORT OF WHEN THE REALLY BIG HEART BREAKING MOMENTS HAPPENED.

IT WAS LIKE YOU KIND OF SHIFTED FROM THIS PROBLEM-SOLVING MODE TO .. COULD BE LOSING THIS REALLY SPECIAL PERSON TO ME.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THAT MONTH LEADING UP TO THE DI..

PROBABLY ONE OF THE DARKEST, UM, PERIODS OF MY LIFE, AND I STILL CAN'T REALLY PINPOINT WHAT HAPPENED OR WHY I SH.. BEEN IN THE PRIME OF MY LIFE, AT THE HEIGHT OF MY CAREER, EVERYTHING WAS GOING SO WELL.

IT WAS NOT ME THAT WAS GOING TO THE EVENTS, THAT WAS GOING TO WORK, THAT WAS SOCIALIZING WITH PEOPLE.

THAT WAS LIKE A ZOMBIE VERSION OF MYSELF.

DR. OZUA, PSYCHIATRIST: I THINK AT HER LOWEST POINT, I WOU.. THAT CHRISTY'S WAS IN A KIND OF LIKE, WHY SHOULD I BOTHER?

WHAT WAS SCARY FOR HER WAS THAT..

TYPICALLY GAVE HER A LOT OF PLEASURE, WHICH WAS KIND OF BEING OUT THERE AND AND DOING FOR OTHERS, I THINK WAS .. BURDENSOME FOR HER.

AND I THINK THAT WAS SCARING HER.

PERSON OFF CAMERA ASKING QUESTION: RIGHT .. YOU SAY IS YOUR LIFE'S BIG..

CHALLENGE?

CHRISTA WITTMIER: DEPRESSION.

IT MAKES ME ANTISOCIAL.

I CAN'T CONNECT WITH PEOPLE,.. ADDICTED TO DRUGS.

I WITHDRAW.

I DON'T DO WHAT I'M BEST TO DO.

HONESTLY, IT'S LIKE THIS EVIL MONSTER THAT JUST, LIKE, KEEPS COMING BACK AND PULLING ME OUT OF WHAT I JUST LIKE WHERE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE.

IT JUST LIKE, CHANGES ME COMPLETELY.

LIKE EVERYBODY WOULD DESCRIBE ME AS A HAPPY, POSITIVE PERSON, AND THEN THEY HAVE NO IDEA LIKE THAT I'M NOT.

.. WAS GETTING SAD.

I KNEW IT WAS COMING.

I COULD FEEL IT... HAD MEDS FROM THE LAST TIME THAT I GOT SAD, BUT I COULDN'T EVEN GET UP THE WILL POWER TO JUST GO INTO MY CABINET.

I WOULD JUST SIT HERE, JUST SIT HERE AND BE MISERABLE.

IT JUST DOESN'.. LIKE, I KNOW THAT, LIKE, I KNOW WHAT'S RIGHT AND I CAN'T GET THERE.

SO IT'S LIKE MORE FRUSTRATING, AND BUT IT'S LIKE IT HASN'T BEEN LIKE, AS BAD AS IT WAS WHEN I FIRST GOT DIAGNOSED, BECAUSE THAT WAS REALLY BAD.

I COULDN'T THINK OF LIKE HOW I COULD POSSIBLY DO ANYTHING ELSE.

AND IT WAS LIKE THAT FOR AT LEAST A MONTH, LIKE, YOU KNOW, FEELING RELIEVED AND BEING HAPPY ABOUT IT.

LIKE, OH YOU KNOW, IT'S FINALLY MY WAY OU.. YOU KNOW, HONORABLE.

I DON'T BECAUSE I DON'T THINK I WOULD HAVE EVER BEEN ABLE TO REALLY END IT.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: THAT WAS ABSOLUTELY HEARTBREAKING, TO SEE SOMEBODY THAT THAT ALL YOU WANTED WAS TO SEE THEM THRIVE.

AND THEY JUST WANTED TO GIVE UP.

PERSON INTERVIEWING CHRISTA: HOW DOES IT FEEL WHEN YOU FEEL.. PEOPLE REALLY AREN'T SEEING YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE REALLY FEELING INSIDE?

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I JUST, I, OH, I HAVE A HARD TIME TRUSTING PEOPLE AND I'VE BEEN BURNED.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: MY LOWEST POINT WAS WHEN SHE REALLY REVEALED WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HER HEAD THAT, YOU KNOW, SHE WAS FEELING LIKE NOBODY LOVED HER.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: IT'S HARD TO LET GO OF THAT FEELING.

SO IT MAKES ME NOT TRUST PEOPLE AND IT MAKES ME A LITTLE JADED AN..

SAD AND ANGRY.

AND I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE'S OUT TO GET .. THAT, NO, EVERYBODY WHO'S SAYING THAT THEY LOVE ME, THAT TH..

LYING AND THEY'RE JUST TRYING TO GET TO USE ME TO GET SOMETHING FROM ME.

.. SHE WAS FEELING LIKE MAYBE THESE FRIENDSHIPS THAT SHE HAD M..

WERE A FACADE AND THAT THAT WAS DEFINITELY THE, THE HARDEST PART FOR ME.

BECAUSE HOW DO YOU BRING SOMEBODY UP FROM THAT?

RIG..

MEAN, YOU CAN TELL THEM ALL THAT YOU WANT IT KNOW PEOPLE LOVE YOU.

YOU HAVE TO FIGHT THROUGH THIS.

YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE IT.

BUT THAT'S SOMETHING THAT JUST HAPPENS WITHIN THAT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT ANYBODY ELSE CAN DO.

SO I THINK IT WAS REALLY FEELING LIKE POWERLESS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: IT'LL, IT'LL REALLY BOTHER MY FRIENDS WHEN I SAY IT, BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS AND IT'S LIKE, I KNOW IT'S IRRATIONAL TO EVEN THINK THAT, BUT IT'S JUST IT'S LIKE THE FEELING THAT I HAVE.

I JUST FEEL LIKE I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS OR I CAN'T TRUST ANYBODY.

GOING PEACEFULLY WITH LIKE, SOME KIND OF LI..

GIVEN DISEASE OR WHATEVER IS LIKE, IT'S NOT SO HARSH.

AND I'D BEEN WANTING, I'D WANTED TO BE DEAD FOR A WHILE.

IT'S ALMOST LIKE IT'S YOU'RE NOT PROCESSING THINGS THE WAY YOU NORMALLY WOULD.

AND I THINK THE HARDEST PART IS, YOU KNOW, HOW YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO FEEL, YOU KNOW, LIKE WHAT'S RATIONAL AND YOU JUST CAN'T GET THERE.

I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER.

AND YOU'RE TRYING TO BE AS NICE ABOUT IT AS POSSIBLE WITHOUT DISTURBING ANYBODY.

YOU JUST WANT TO, LIKE, WALK OUT.

AND I JUST I THINK ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE COMMITTED SUICIDE AND AND AND I, I WOULD LOOK UP TO THEM LIKE I WOULD I WOULD LIKE THEIR THEIR BRAVERY OR THEIR COURAGE TO EVEN DO IT, WHICH WAS LIKE INSPIRATIONAL TO ME BECAUSE UM I JUST DIDN'T I DIDN'T HAVE ..

STRENGTH TO TO GO THERE.

YOU CAN'T IT'S SO ISOLATING.

YOU CAN'T TALK TO ANYBODY ABOUT IT.

YOU DON'T WANT THEM TO SEE YOU LIKE THAT.

SUPPORT GROUP SPEAKER: THE TENDENCY TO FEEL DEPRESSED IS INHERITED.

THE TENDENCY TO THE ABILITY TO FEEL HAPPY IS LEARNED.

SO, AND THEY FOUND THAT FROM TWIN STUDIES.

IF YOU HAVE TWO IDENTICAL TWINS AND ONE'S DEPRESSED, AND ONE IS MORE THAN LIKELY DEPRESSED.

BUT IF ONE..

IF THEY'RE FRATERNAL, AND ONE KNOWS HOW TO BE HAPPY.

THE OTHER MAY NOT KNOW HOW TO BE HAPPY.

IT'S SOMEHOW YOU LEARN IT.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: YOU LEARN IT.

OH MY GOD, MAYBE I SHOULD TRY THAT.

SUPPORT GROUP SPEAKER: AND YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE, YEAH, WORK ON THAT LEVEL AND JUST FOR THE TIME BEING, TAKE THE DRUGS.

I DON'T BELIEVE THE DRUGS ARE EFFECTIVE LONG TERM.

I JUST THINK THAT RIGHT NOW IN THE PLACE THAT YOU'RE AT, IT WOULD BE USEFUL BECAUSE YOU GOT A LOT OF DECISIONS TO MAKE.

YOUR LIFE JUST TURNED UPSIDE DOWN.

DR. OZUA, PSYCHIATRIST: SHE WAS LOOKING AT SOME ISSUES OF REGRET, SOME ISSUES OF RESENTMENT IN THE OLDER CHILDHOOD ISSUES, OTHER RELATIONSHIPS IN HER FAMILY, AND SHE'S SORTING THROUGH WHAT THOSE THINGS MEANT.

AND THEN I THINK SOME OF THE SOCIAL FACTORS WERE SHE'S A VERY SOCIAL PERSON.

SHE'S VERY GREGARIOUS AND OUTGOING.

AND I THINK FOR HER, THE CHALLENGES WERE WHETHER OR NOT SHE COULD ALLOW HE.. BE DEPRESSED.

SUPPORT GROUP SPEAKER: CAN YOU GET IN YOUR OWN WAY AND NOT HEAL BECAUSE OF NEGATIVE ATTITUDES?

PROBABLY.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I WAS ACTUALLY KIND OF ACCEPTING THAT THIS WAS THE WAY I WAS GOING TO GO...

I WAS HAPPY WITH IT.

BUT I HAD TO, YOU KNOW, PLAY THE PART FOR MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

A.. SCHEDULING.

I KNOW I HAVE .. WAS GOING TO FLY OUT.

I WAS GOING TO HELP LIKE HAV.. OUT HERE AND HELP ME PACK UP MY APARTMENT JUST TO MAKE IT LIKE A PEACEFUL.

NINA P.. NOW, CHRISTA KNEW I WAS GOING TO THE PSYCHIC, BUT SHE DIDN'T KNOW THAT I WAS GOING TO ASK AN.. ABOUT HER BECAUSE I WAS SCARED ABOUT WHAT SHE WAS GOING TO SAY.

SO I SHOWED HER THE PICTURE OF CHRISTA AND SHE SAID SHE STARTED DOING THIS.

SHE SAID HER L..

BREAST, SHE HAS A LUMP IN HER LEFT BREAST, AND SHE TOLD ME IF SHE DOES JUST NATURAL, SHE'S GOING TO DIE.

SHE CAN'T DO JUST NATURAL.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: IT CAME OUT OF NOWHERE AND IT WAS SUCH A CRAZY LIKE, SNAP OUT OF IT, GRAB YOUR COLLAR MOMENT THAT I CAN'T.. THAT IT CAME FROM ANYBODY BUT GOD.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: AND AT THIS POINT, CHRISTA, I WERE LOOKING INTO GOING TO MEXICO TO DOING 100% NATUROPATHS.

SO NOT DOING THE, YOU KNOW, WESTERN MEDICINE, CHEMOTHERAPY TREATME.. CHRISTA WITTMIER: I REMEMBER EXACTLY HOW I WAS LI.. JUST LIKE LAYING FACE DOWN ON MY COUCH, LIKE, YOU KNOW HOW YOU DO THAT AND YOU'RE LIKE TEXTI.. AND I WAS LIKE, HOW DID IT GO?

HOW DID IT GO WITH LONGO?

AND SHE SAID, IT WENT GOOD.

I ASKED ABOUT YOU AND I WAS LIKE, OH, WHAT DID SHE SAY?

THIS IS THROUGH TEXT.

SO IT ..

DELAYS, YOU KNOW, IN THE RESPONSE.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: AND I WAS SITTING THERE IN MY PHONE AND I'M LIKE, DO I TELL HER THIS OR DO I NOT TELL HER THIS?

CHRISTA WITTMIER: SHE SAID, SHE'S SICK, SHE NEEDS SURGERY, SHE SURVIVE, SHE GET BETTER.

AND I WAS LIKE, AND I REMEMBER LIKE, WHAT?

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: AND SO I SAID, YEAH.

SHE SAID THAT IF YOU DO JUST NATURAL THAT IT'S NOT GOING TO WORK.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THIS IS LIKE IN THE MIDDLE OF ME AC.. THAT I WAS DONE.

I WASN'T EVEN EXPECTING HER TO ASK ABOUT ME.

I MEAN, I JUST WAS I HONESTLY, LIKE, I DIDN'T EVEN THINK TO EVEN ASK HER TO.

I JUST WAS LIKE, WANTED TO KNOW, LIKE, WHAT HAPPENED, WHAT DID SHE SAY?

WHICH WAS LIKE, I ASKED HER ABOUT YOU AND I WAS .. NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: AND SHE WAS JUST SHE FELT SO LIGHT AND SO RELIEVED TO HAVE A DECISION MADE.

IT WAS LIKE THAT WAS ALL THAT SHE NEEDED BECAUSE IT WAS THIS MONTH OF GOING BACK AND FORTH OF TRYING TO FIN.. WHAT'S THE BEST METHOD, WHAT METHODS ARE THERE, TRYING TO DISSECT THE LANGUAGE, WHAT DOES ALL THIS MEAN?

SO IT HAD BEEN SO OVERWHELMING AND EVERYONE SHARING THEIR STORIES ABOUT, OH I DID THIS OR MY FRIEND DID THAT AND IT WORKED AND YOU BECO..

OVERWHELMED.

SO IT WAS LIKE JUST TO HAVE THAT SORT OF LIKE DECISION MADE AND THAT PIECE, THAT WAS REALLY WHAT THE PSYCHIC READING BROUGHT TO HER.

SO IT WAS JUST AS SOON AS AS THAT HAPPENED, SHE WENT, OKAY, I GOT IT.

I GOT MY GAME PLAN.

LET'S DO THIS.

THAT WAS BY FAR THE MOST SINGLE TURNING POINT IN THIS ENTIRE THING.

AND I KNOW DAMN WELL I WOULD NOT BE SITTING HERE IF IT WASN'T FOR THAT.

I KNOW IT.

THAT WAS GOD YANKING ME ON.

LIKE, STOP IT.

SNAP OUT OF IT.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS.

DR. KEVIN GIBSON, NA.. WOULD SAY HISTORICALLY IT WAS SORT OF YOU HAVE TO DO THIS OR YOU HAVE TO DO THAT.

AND..

IT'S CONVENTIONAL MEDICINE OR INTEGRATIVE ONCOLOGY OR NATUROPATHIC APPROACH, AND I THINK MANY ONCOLOGISTS ARE RECOGNIZING THE VALUE HERE ON THEIR ISLANDS.

WE HAVE LOTS OF ONCOLOGISTS THAT WORK VERY WELL WITH ME AND UNDERSTAND THAT I'M NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING TO INTERFERE WITH THEIR TREATMENT, I'M GOING TO ENHANCE THEIR TREATMENT AND I'M GOING TO SUPPORT THAT PATIENT'S BODY TO HAVE GREATER SURVIVAL.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: WITH MY MOM AND SISTER IN WASHINGTON STATE WHERE I GREW UP.

I WAS VERY LUCKY TO HAVE FRIENDS ..

LOCALLY STEP UP TO HELP ME.

THEY HELPED ME PURGE MY KITCHEN.

I HAD TO START ALL OVER AND RADICALLY CHANGED THE WAY I EAT.

AT FIRST I WAS GOING TO WR.. BOOK.

I WAS LIKE, OH, OKAY, I'M WRITING A BOOK ABOUT THIS... THEN I REALIZED, WELL, A BOOK TAKES FOREVER, YOU KNOW?..

THERE'S SO MANY BOOKS ON CANCER.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: ACTUALLY.

WHAT PUT HER CANCER PLAN OF ATTACK TOGETHER WAS MY AUNT.

SHE GOT DIAGNOSED WITH PANCREATIC CANCER.

AND SO I SAT THERE AND I STARTED KIND OF WRITING NOTES.

I WAS..

I HAVE TO SEND HER THESE, YOU KNOW, THE R-G-C-C TEST AND EATING THE MUSHROOMS AND, YOU KNOW, ALL THESE THINGS T.. HAD SORT OF THAT SHE HAD DONE.

AND CHRISTA SAID, I SAID, HEY, WHAT ELSE CAN YOU ADD TO..

LIST?

AND SHE GOES, HANG ON, I'M GOING TO I'LL PUT SOMETHING TOGETHER FOR HER.

AND I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST GOING TO BE A TEXT MESSAGE.

A COUPLE OF DAYS LATER, SHE SENDS ME THIS, I DON'T KNOW, WHAT IS IT LIKE AN EIGHT PAGE DOCUMENT ON HER ENTIRE CANCER PLAN OF ATTACK?

AND IT WAS AMAZING.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: SO I JUST MADE IT AS A FREE GOOGLE DOC.

I JUST SAT DOWN ONE WEEKEND AND WROTE IT.

I'M HERE TO TE.. SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

I WAS HOPING IT WOULD JUST BASICALLY LIKE SNAP, SNAP SOMEBODY OUT OF THAT FUNK THAT YOU GET IN WHEN YOU'RE SCARED AND THERE'S TOO MUCH INFORMATION OUT THER.. LIKE, YOU DON'T WANT TO LOOK AT THE INTERNET BECAUSE THERE'S SO MUCH.

I AM GOING TO AS SIMPLY AS I CAN SHARE WITH YOU THE STEPS I TOOK TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY HEALTH.

THIS GUIDE, IT HAS THINGS THAT JUST CAME TO ME BY THE GRACE OF THE NETWORK THAT I HAD BUILT, YOU KNOW, THE COMMUNITY STEPPING UP, FRIENDS THAT I HAD, COLLEAGUES THAT KNEW CERTAIN THINGS.

AND I WAS ABLE TO QUICKLY SIFT THROUGH ALL OF THAT TO MAKE MY TREATMENT PLAN...

IT WORKED FOR ME.

PURGE YOUR KITCHEN.

RIGHT NOW YOU NEED TO DETOXIFY YOUR BODY AND STOP THE CANCER FROM GROWING.

NO PROCESSED FOODS WHATSOEVER.

IF YOU HAVE TO READ A LABEL, IT'S ALREADY THE WRONG THING.

CANCER CELLS LOVE S..

SO STARVE THOSE SUCKERS.

NO WHITE CARBS, BREAD, RICE, SODA, ENERGY DRINKS, CANDY, REFINED SUGAR.

STOP IT ALL COLD TURKEY AND FOCUS.

THIS GOES FOR EVERYTHING THAT IS PHYSICAL AS WELL AS EMOTIONAL.

NO STRESS, NO DRAMA, ONLY POSITIVE EMOTIONS.

L..

GRATITUDE, AND JOY.

WELL, IT MIGHT NOT HAVE CURED CANCER, BUT IT'S DEFINITELY TAKEN ME WELL BEYOND THE ORIGINAL PROGNOSIS.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MANY ..

I'VE SENT THIS TO PEOPLE BECAUSE UNFORTUNATELY NOW FOR WOMEN, CANCER IS IT'S A ONE IN 3% CHANCE OF BEING DIAGNOSED.

FOR MEN, IT'S ONE IN TWO.

SO ALL OF US ARE JUST HAVING THESE CONSTANT, LIKE BAD TEXT MESSAGE, PHONE CALLS GOING, HEY, JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW SO-AND-SO HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH WHATEVER TYPE OF CANCER.

SO I HAVE SENT THIS CANCER PLAN OF ATTACK TO PROBABLY 25 PEOPLE AT THIS POINT.

SUPPORT GROUP SPEAKER: CHRISTA WAS CURIOUS.

CHRISTA WAS ENTHUSIASTIC.

KRISTA WAS A SEARCHER, IS A SEARCHER.

SHE WAS ABLE TO ACCESS ALL KINDS OF INFORMATION FROM ALL SORTS OF DIFFERENT PEOPLE AND MAGNETIZE PEOPLE INTO HELPING HER AND, AND CREATING A POSITIVE SITUATION FOR HER.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I'M NO DOCTOR AND EACH HUMAN IS UNIQUELY PROGRAMMED, SO I JUS.. SHARE WITH YOU WHAT WORKED FOR ME IN HOPES THAT I CAN HELP YOU IN THOSE CRITICAL FIRST FEW DAYS OR WEEKS AFTER YOUR DIAGNOSIS.

SUPPORT GROUP SPEAKER: N.. CAN HEAL YOU.

YOU CAN TAKE CHEMO, YOU CAN TAKE HERBS, YOU CAN TAKE ACUPUNCTURE.

THOSE ARE NOT GOING TO HEAL YOU UNLESS YOU HEAL YOURSELF.

THOSE ARE JUST AVENUES TO THAT SELF-HEALING PROCESS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: AND I DIDN'T JUST DETOXIFY MY BODY.

I ALSO DETOXIFIED MY HOUSE.

SO MY DETERGENT, MY SHAMPOO, TOOTHPASTE, DEODORANT, EVERYTHING WAS.. NO TOXINS.

FIRST THINGS FIRST.

IT'S IMPORTANT NOW TO T.. WHERE YOU'RE AT EMOTIONALLY.

IT'S GOING TO TAKE A VERY STRONG WILL THAT YOU DO HAVE TO GET THROUGH THESE NEXT FEW MONTHS.

I'LL NEVER FORGET THE ROLLER COASTER OF THE IMPENDING DOOM I WAS FACING AND ALMOST ACCEPTING.

DO NOT LET IT CONSUME YOU.

ONCE YOU GET YOUR STATE OF MIND.. TO TRULY WITH EVERY FIBER OF YOUR EXISTENCE, BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN AND WILL GET RID OF THIS CANCER, IT'S TIME TO..

IMPORTANT THINGS RIGHT AWAY.

MALEKO, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: SHE'S STILL DOING IT.

SHE'S STILL DOING EVERYTHING SHE..

WHEN I MET HER.

SHE'S STILL CONNECTING WITH NEW PEOPLE.

SHE'S STILL REACHING OUT TO OLD FRIENDS.

SHE'S STILL VERY, VERY IN TUNE WITH WHAT'S HAPPENING AND WHAT'S COOL AND WHAT'S HIP.

YOU KNOW, EVERYTHING THAT MADE HER SUPER CW WHEN I MET HER IS STILL HER NOW.

YOU KNOW, SHE HAS THIS THIS CHALLENGE THAT SHE'S TRYING TO OVERCOME.

AND AT THE SAME TIME, INSTEAD OF JUST TRYING TO DEAL WITH IT, JUST TRYING TO SURVIVE TODAY, SHE'S TURNED IT AROUND INTO THIS CAMPAIGN TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE.

GRACE PARK, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: WHAT ARE THE STEPS YOU WANT TO TAKE AS A HUMAN BEING?

WHAT'S THE IMPACT YOU WANT TO MAKE ON THIS WORLD?

AND SOME OF THAT IS GOING THROUGH THESE THINGS THAT HELP SHAPE YOU AND THAT KI..

THE PARTS ARE LIKE THAT.

YOU BURN OFF THINGS THAT AREN'T NECESSARY TO YOU.

AND WHEN YOU DO THAT, YOU'RE REFINING YOURSELF AS A PERSON.

AND I THINK THAT YOU GET TO SEE CHRISTA'S COLORS BRIGHTER AND YOU GET TO SEE HER HEART AND YOUR EYES AND HER SPIRIT BRIGHTER.

AND THAT IS JUST SUCH A BEAUTIFUL JOURNEY FOR EVERYONE.

FRIEND: HEY CHRISTA, MUITO OBRIGADO FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO FOR US AT RUM FIRE.

I CA.. TO SEE YOU BACK HERE AGA..

FRIEND: THANK YOU SO MUCH CHRISTA.

LOVE YOU.

MY WHOLE LIFE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: MY WHOLE LIFE, I'VE LOVED TO SHARE.

AND T..

SOON AS I GOT SICK, I JUST HAD THIS URGE TO SHARE.

THE MORE PEOPLE WHO STARTED WATCHING MY SNAPS, THE MORE MOTIVATION THAT I HAD.

VITAMIN C TIME.

THE VITAMIN C TRICKS YOUR CANCER INTO THINKING THAT IT'S GLUCOSE, BUT THEN IT'S NOT, AND THEN IT KILLS IT.

KILL THE CANCER CELLS.

FOR FOUR MONTHS EVERY SINGLE DAY, I WAS MAKING STORIES, SHARING .. CHRISTA WITTMIER: WHAT DID THE DOCTOR JUST TELL US?

NINA PULLELA: SHE GOT A GOOD REPORT CARD.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: GOLD STAR PATIENT TODAY AT THE NATUROPATH.

WHO WAS IT?

CONSTANTLY KEEPING EVERYBODY UPDATED.

IT GAVE A LOT OF HOPE TO MYSELF.

IT KEPT ME ACCOUNTABLE TO TAKE ALL MY PILLS, TO DO ALL MY TREATMENTS, AND SECOND OF ALL, I WANTED TO SHOW MYSELF THAT I COULD D..

I JUST WANTED PEOPLE TO SEE THAT, YOU KNOW, THAT FIRST OF ALL, THAT IT COULD BE DONE THEN REALLY GO FOR IT.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: HOW AM I DOING?

CHRISTA WITTMIER: TELL EVERYBODY HOW I'M DOING IS DOING A MEET.

FRIEND: SHE IS DOING AMAZING.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: HI.

THIS IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE.

THANK YOU, YODA.

THANK YOU.

DR. KEVIN GIBSON, NATUROPATH: BUT THE UPS AND DOWNS .. FOR EVERY PATIENT IS VERY, VERY DIFFICULT.

AND YOU GET GOOD NEWS.

YOU'RE UP, YOU GET BAD NEWS, YOU'RE DOWN.

I TELL MY PATIENTS THAT YOU NE..

UNDERSTAND THERE'S GOING TO BE TIMES WHERE YOU CAN'T PUT TOO MUCH WEIGHT ON GOOD NEWS BECAUSE WE NEED LONG TERM AND WE NEED TO PAY ATTENTION TO YEARS.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: SHE WENT FROM NOT KNOWING IF SHE WANTED TO SURVIVE, TO GOING WAY BEYOND ANYTHING I'VE EVER SEEN ANYONE DO TO FIGHT FOR T.. LIFE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I GOTTA .. USED TO THIS.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: SHE HATES TAKING PILLS AND SHE DRANK BAKING SODA AND LEMON EVERY MORNING.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: ALL MY JUICES ARE BACK.

NINA PULLELA: THAT MIGHT NOT SOUND DISGUSTING, BUT I TRIED IT AND IT'S GROSS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: YOU GOTTA LISTEN MORE THAN YOU TALK AND YOU KNOW YOUR OPINION AN.. WAY YOU THINK THINGS SHOULD BE DONE IN THE FUTURE.

YO.. TAKE TAKE A CHILL PILL AT FIRST, YOU KNOW, AND JUST SEE HOW THINGS ARE DONE.

(SHAKING PRAYER STICK) NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: I MEAN, THESE ARE THINGS THAT YOU DON'T JUST LAY BACK ..

OKAY, WELL, MY DOCTOR SAID, DO CHEMOTHERAPY AND THAT'S THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO.

SHE WENT BEYOND.

SHE WENT WAY BEYOND.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: GO AWAY, GO AWAY.

GO AWAY, SKIP.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: SHE TALKED TO HEALERS, JUICERS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: I'M GONNA TO USE THIS FOR MY GROCER.. NOW•.LIKE.

NINA PULLELA, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: I MEAN, SHE GAVE UP HER FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD TO SURVIVE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: WE'RE GOING TO LIVE ROCKO.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: SO BEFORE LAST YEAR, I DIDN'T PUT MYSELF BEFORE ANYTHING.

WHATEVER HAPPENS, WHATEVER IT SAYS ON THIS THING, IT DOESN'T MATTER, BECAUSE.. READY FOR WHATEVER IT SAID.

AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS HOW YOU DO IT.

I THOUGHT THAT WAS THE WAY TO LIVE, YOU KNOW, WORRY ABOUT YOURSELF LAST.

AND THAT IS SUCH A•GOOD MORNING, MY LITTLE FRIENDS...VALUABLE LESSON THIS YEAR THAT I LEARNED IS T.. CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF ..

I COULD PUT MYSELF FIRST.. CAN LOOK AFTER MY HEALTH AND MY WELL-BEING AND MY EMOTIONAL STATE, ALL OF IT.

AND I DO.. HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR TH.. SPEAKER RECITING TEST RESULTS:•..THAT WERE SEEN ON ..

PRIOR STUDY HAVE COMPLETELY RESOLVED.

(CHEER)• THE HYPER METABOLIC PRIMARY, MALIG.. NEOPLASM IN THE LEFT BREAS.. WELL.

MEDIASTINUM BIHILAR HAVE COMPLETELY RESOLVED.

(CHEER) GIRL, YOU'RE DOING REA.. CHRISTA WITTMIER: I HAVE NO CANCER ANYWHERE.

LIKE, NOWHERE.

(CHEERS) AL.. SPEAKER READING TEST RESULT: POSSIBLE FIVE MILLIMETER IN THE FRONTAL LOBE.

>> THAT'.. >> YEAH.

>> WELL, HOW BIG IS FIVE MILLIMETER?

ONLY CAN SAY• >> I'M NOT QUITE SUR.. CHRISTA WITTMIER: OH IT'S PROBABLY JUST SOME A.. CHRISTA WITTMIER: GOT EVERYBODY'S LOVE AND POSITIVITY AND POSITIVE ENERGIES LIKE IN ME.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: ONCE YOU REALIZE THAT PEOPLE ARE PAYING ATTENTION TO YOU, YOU KIND OF WANT TO START HAVING A MORE POSITIVE MESSAGE.

NURSE: YEAH.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THAT'S IT.

LIKE THAT.

TAKE A PI..

HERE IT GOES, BELL OF HOPE.

(BELL RINGING) YOU CAN DO IT.

SO, MAYBE IF I'M NOT FEELING A CERTAIN WAY, THAT PUTS A LOT OF PRESSURE ON YOU TO STILL BE POSITIVE.

YOU KNOW, LOOK AT THE THE SUNNY SIDE ALL THE TIME.

BUT, UH, I WAS REALLY GOOD AT IT.

YOU KNOW, EVERYTHING THAT I POSTED, EVERYTHING I PROJECTED WAS THE SUNNY SIDE UP.

I MEAN, GENUINELY A POSITIVE PERSON.

IT'S JUST EASIER TO LIVE THAT WAY.

NOTHING IN MY BOOB, NOTHING IN THE LUNGS, NOTHING IN ..

I TOTALLY BEAT IT.

I'D BEAT CANCER IN LIKE 10 WEEKS.

I BEAT CANCER BABY.

SPEAKER: DO YOU USE ANY ASSISTANCE UTENSILS?

DARYL HUFF MODERATING INSIGHTS ON PBS HAWAII: COMING UP..

INSIGHTS ON PBS HAWAII FAC.. OUR MORTALITY AND CHRISTA WITTMIER IS A MARKETING DIRECTOR, LOCAL COLUMNIST AND DJ WHO WAS DIAGNOSED WITH STAGE-FOUR BREAST CANCER IN MAY OF 2015.

BY SEPTEMBER SHE SAYS SCANS REVEALED THAT SHE WAS CANCER FREE.

SHE'S NOW SHARING HER STORY TO INSPIRE OTHERS BATTLING CANCER.

CHRISTA ..

BELIEVE IT, ACTUALLY.

LIKE IT'S REALLY IT'S JUST, YOU NEVER REALLY CAN ACCEPT IT BECAUSE IT'S LIKE WHAT YOU'RE THINKING LIKE AND HOW YOU FEEL AND WHAT YOU'RE BEING TOLD.

IT'S ALL KIND OF DIFFERENT THINGS AT THIS POINT.

YOU'RE BEING PULLED IN DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS.

SUCH A WEIRD THING NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT BECAUSE I G..

IT, YOU KNOW, AND NOW I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M EVEN TELLING YOU THIS.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: MY MOM AND MY DAD ACTUALLY SPLIT UP WHEN I WAS THREE, SO I DON'T REMEMBER HIM TOO MUCH.

I SEE PHOTOS OF US AND I SEE HOW CLOSE WE WERE.

WE WOULD WRITE LETTERS BACK AND FORTH, LONG LETTERS, AND I'M PRETTY SURE THAT THAT WAS UP UNTIL MAYBE I WAS LIKE 11 OR 13 YEARS OLD.

I ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD.

I SAW HOW MY FRIENDS WERE .. THEIR DADS AND MY MOM LET ME WRITE LETTERS TO HIM.. WE WROTE BACK AND FORTH FOR MANY YEARS.

DREW AND HE WOULD SEND ME BACK WATERCOLORS THAT HE WOULD MAKE.

AND I REMEMBER THAT HE REALLY LIKED TAKING PHOTOS.

HE ALWAYS HAD A CAMERA.

I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO GET BACK IN TOUCH WITH HIM AND, YOU KNOW, JUST SE..

HE WAS LIKE OR WHAT HE WAS DOING.

TELL HIM WHAT I'M DOING.

I MEAN, IT'S MY DAD.

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO REACH OUT TO HIM, BUT I NEVER WAS ABLE TO TAKE THAT STEP, YOU KNOW, TO SEND THE LETTER OR THE EMAIL OR MAKE A CALL UNTIL• CHRISTA'.. AM JUST GLAD YOU FOUND IT IN YOUR HEART TO CONTACT ME.

I'M OVERWHELMED BY YOUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS AND YOUR DRIVE TO HAVE A FULL AND MEANINGFUL LIFE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THEY TOL.. THAT THE CANCER WAS BACK AND THAT IT WAS ALL OVER MY BRAIN.

I REALLY DIDN'T BELIEVE THAT THAT WAS GOING TO KILL ME FOR SOME REASON I JUST DIDN'T THINK.

BUT MY DOCTOR WAS, THE WAY SHE WAS TREATING IT LIKE, YOU KNOW, I WAS GOING DOWN LIKE I HAD LIKE MONTHS NOW.

CHRISTA'S FATHER GARY CURTIS: YOU WERE RIGHT THAT WE.. CLOSE WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG, AND I WILL ALWAYS REGRET LOSING .. CHRISTA WITTMIER: IT JUST I WAS LIKE, WELL, YOU KNOW, I BETTER GET MY AFFAIRS IN ORDER AND I BETTER TRY TO CONNECT WI.. DAD FOR ONE LAST TIME.

CHRISTA'S FATHER GARY CURTIS: I ENJOYED THE LETTERS WE HAD WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG AND MISS THEM WHEN THEY STOPPED.

I..

MYSELF FOR THAT.

YOU'RE ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS.

LOVE DAD.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THE LOVE THAT I FELT FROM HIM IMMEDIATELY.

IT WASN'T LIKE ANYTHING I'D EVER FELT.

IT WAS JUST SO UNCONDITIONAL.

AND TO HAVE THAT FEELING FROM A MAN.

WHAT A DREAM COME TRUE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: REALLY?

IT WAS REALLY JUST SOMETHING THAT I'VE NEVER EXPERIENCED.

CHRISTA'S FATHER GARY CURTIS: I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: HE WAS SO PROUD OF ME AND JUST SO HAPPY TO BE ABLE TO SEE ME AND SEE HOW I GREW UP.

THAT EXPERIENCE WAS PHENOMENAL.

LISA WITTMIER: OBVIOUSLY, I'M NOT GRATEFUL THAT SHE GOT SICK, BUT I'M REALLY GRATEFUL THAT ONE OF THE GOOD THINGS TO CO.. OF THIS WAS THAT HER AND I BECAME CLOSER AS SISTERS BECAUSE, I MEAN, FAMILY IS IMPORTANT.

YOU HAVE FRIENDS, BUT FAMILY IS ALWAYS SUPPOSED TO BE THERE FOR YOU.

AND I FELT LIKE SOMETHING WAS KIND OF MISSING MY ADULT LIFE.

AND I KNOW THAT CHRISTA WAS A BIG PART OF THAT BECAUSE WE HAD ALWAYS BEEN SO CLOSE GROWING UP.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: MY FIRST WORD THAT I THINK OF WHEN I THINK OF CHRISTA IS LIGHT.

FRIEND OF .. POSITIVITY AND LOVE AND• FRIEND OF CHRISTA: IT'S CONTAGIOUS, IT'S B..

POSITIVE.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: AND SHE CAN TAKE ANYBODY THAT SHE RUNS INTO AND MAKE THEM SEEM LIKE THE CENTER OF THE PARTY.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: IT'S CHANGED HER FOREVER, IN A WAY THAT I THINK, I DON'T THINK I EVER SEE HER DOING ANYTHING EVER AGAIN, THAT THAT DOESN'T HELP OTHER PEOPLE.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: IT'S MAYBE 10 TO 20 TIMES A WEEK THAT I'M SHARING MY PAPER WITH SOMEBODY ELSE WHO'S DIAGNOSED OR WHO KNOWS SOMEBODY WHO'S DIAGNOSED AND JUST KNOWING THAT I JUST HAVE TO DO LIKE ALL .. IS SHARE WHAT I DID.

THAT'S HELPING PEOPLE AND IT'S SAVING PEOPLE.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: I THINK THAT SHE'S, REALIZES HER POWER AND HER STRENGTH AND REALIZES THAT IT'S GOOD BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, IT HELPS TO MAKE SENSE OF ALL THIS, RIGHT.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: SHE'S TAKEN THE TRAUMA THAT SHE'S GONE THROUGH, GONE THROUGH AND I THINK BECOME EVEN A BETTER PERSON.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: YOU KNOW, SOMEBODY WHO WHO TURNE.. CAMPAIGN OF OF SELF-..

INTO A TRIUMPH FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

IF MORE PEOPLE ARE GETTING CANCER TODAY, MORE PEOPLE NEED THE MESSAGE.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: AND SHE'S LIKE, I FEEL LIKE SHE'..

THIS FOR EVERYBODY ELSE.

SHE'S LIKE THIS CATALYST IN OUR GENERATION.

FRIEND OF CHRISTA: SHE IS SO BRIGHT AND SHE'S ALMOST LIKE A LIGHT FOR OTHER PEOPLE IN A WAY.

IT'S ALMOST LIKE SHE'S A BIRD THAT LIKE FLIES LIKE OVER THE WATER.

AND ONCE IN A WHILE I WOULD HIT THE WATER, BUT REALLY IS REALLY MEANT TO SOAR.

AND AND I THINK THAT SHE ALMOST CATCHES A LOT OF PEOPLE'S EYES BECAUSE SHE IS SO BRIGHT.

AND I THINK THIS JOURNEY FOR HER, I DON'T KNOW IF SHE KNOWS HOW STRONG SHE IS OR HOW STRONG THAT SHE ..

BUT THIS JOURNEY DEFINITELY IS GETTING HER TO NOT JUST GATHER PEOPLE FOR SOCIAL OCCASI.. FOR SOMETHING GREATER.

CHRISTA WITTMIER: THIS WHOLE ILLNESS HAS THROWN A WRENCH IN WHAT I WAS DOING, WHERE I WAS SPENDING MY TIME AND ENERGY.

AND NOW I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY THAT MY STORYTELLING ABILITY, MY ABILITY TO SHARE, THESE WERE TALENTS THAT WERE GIVEN TO ME SO I COULD HELP PEOPLE.

I'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT.

BUT I'M NOT THE ONLY ..

THERE'S SO MANY PEOPLE BEING DIAGNOSED AND I KNOW THIS BECAUSE THEY'RE REACHING OUT TO ME.

THEY FOUND MY INFORMAT..

SOMEHOW WITH THE PAPER I WROTE WITH THE YOUTUBE VIDEOS.

I'M IN A CONVERS..

LEAST A DOZEN STRANGERS A WEEK AND I'M HAPPY TO DO IT.

.. ME LIFE.

IT'S GIVING ME THE STRENGTH TO GO ON.

ENJOY YOUR LIFE.

AND EVERY DAY, EVERY MINUTE IS A NEW CHANCE TO START AGAIN.

LISA WITTMIER, CHRISTA'S SISTER: I DON'T EVEN KNOW.

I THINK I PUT IT ON MY FACEBOOK LIKE I KNEW SHE WAS A BIG DEAL.

I JUST DIDN'T REALIZE LIKE, HOW M.. SHE WAS.

AND IT'S NOT.

IT WAS LIKE, OH THAT'S SUPER CW.

LIKE SHE'S A COOL CHICK.

IT'S LIKE PEOPLE HAD GENUINE LOVE FOR HER.

MIKEY INOUYE, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: WHEN I GET INTO MY CAR AND I DRIVE AROUND LIKE KA.. ALL OF DOWNTOWN, LIKE I SEE HER EVERYWHERE.

I SEE HER AND ..

SINGLE PERSON THAT I MEET BECAUSE (WE LOVE YOU MIKEY) IT'S CAUSE•LIKE ALL THE PEOPLE THAT BECOME SO CLOSE TO THE COMMUNITY IN HONOLULU THAT I KNOW, LIKE EVERY SINGLE PERSON I KNOW BECAUSE OF CHRISTA, EVERY SINGLE PERSON I'M CLOSE TO HERE IS BECAUSE OF CHRISTA.

LISA WITTMIER, CHRISTA'S SISTER: IT'S LIKE SHE COULD GO IN .. FIND, LIKE, THE TRAITS IN PEOPLE THAT WERE MEANINGFUL AND LIKE, INTRODUCE THEM TO THE RIGHT PEOPLE TO JUST KIND OF LIKE SHE WAS GREAT AT BUILDING CONNECTIONS FOR PEOPLE AND AND SHE GENUINELY MEANT IT.

AND SHE JUST LIKE SHE WOULD FOLLOW..

IT WASN'T SHE WASN'T FAKE AT ALL.

FRIEND: THE ONE THING THAT SHE DID THROUGH EVERY STAGE .. LIFE WAS SHE INFUSED EVERYTHING WITH JOY.

LISA WITTMIER, CHRISTA'S SISTER: LIKE I COULD FEEL IT IN THE ROOM, JUST LIKE THIS, OVERPOWERING, JUST LOVE AND ADORATION FOR HER AND• DANIEL DAE KIM, CHRISTA'S FRIEND: OR SHE MIGHT SAY, ISN'T IT AMAZING?

AMAZING!

RIGHT?

IT EXCITING, GET EXCITED.

THESE ARE THE THINGS THAT I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER ABOUT CHRISTA.

AND I KNOW THAT IF SHE WERE .. FEEL LIKE SHE'S IN THIS ROOM TONIGHT, THAT'S WHAT SHE'D BE SAYING TO ALL OF US RIGHT NOW.

SO EVEN WHEN I THINK BACK TO THOSE DAYS WHERE I USED TO SAY CHRISTA, WHAT'S GOOD?

I REALIZED THAT THERE WAS ONLY REALLY EVER ONE ANSWER TO THAT QUESTION.

CHRISTA, YOU'RE GOOD.

YOU'RE THE ONE THAT'S GOOD.

LISA WIT.. SHE FELT LIKE SHE HAD ACCOMPLISHED EVERYTH.. WAS MEANT TO ACCOMPLISH.

SHE'D WORKED FIGHTING THIS C.. THREE AND A HALF YEARS, AND SHE DID EVERYTHING THAT SHE POSSIBLY COULD, AND SHE WAS READY TO TRANSITION TO THE OTHER SIDE.

AND AND SHE WAS OKAY WITH IT.

AND SHE FELT GOOD ABOUT IT.

AND I DON'T KNOW, THERE WAS A PIECE ABOUT HER LIKE I COULD FEEL IT SITTING THERE WITH HER.

(CLOSING SONG ABOUT CHRISTA) (CLOSING SONG ABOUT CHRISTA) SHE JOINED THE NAVY AND LANDED ON HER FEET.

SHE STARED ..

EYES OF THE DOG, AND THE EVIL TASTED SWEET.

SHE CHEWED IT UP, AND SPIT IT OUT, BEFORE IT TURNED HER TO THE GHOST.

WHAT SHE LEFT WAS HOPE DOWN HERE.

IT'S WHAT WE NEEDED MOST.

WE WATCHED WHILE SHE SMILED, DROWNING IN THE SEA.

LEAVING GIFTS FOR US THAT LATER WOULD BE SEEN.

WE SAID, OH NO, WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE MAN, YOU AIN'T GONNA WIN.

OH NO, WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE MAN.

SHE TURNED THE TABLES FROM WHAT WE SEEM TO BE.

WITH HER SMILE, HER LOVE, HER CHARM, LESSONS WOULD BE SEEN.

YOU CAN'T STAND OR YOU SEEM A BIT CONFUSED.

REMEMBER CHRISTA'S WAY, YOU MIGHT WALK IN CHRISTA'S SHOES.

WE WATCHED WHILE SHE SMILED, DROWNING IN THE SEA.

SHE WAS LEAVING GIFTS FOR US LATER TO BE SEEN.

WE SAID, OH NO, WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE MAN, YOU AIN'T GONNA WIN.

OH NO, WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE MAN.

BAH, BADA BAH, BADA BAH, BAH, BADA, BAH.

BAH, BADA BAH, BADA BAH, BAH, BADA, BAH.

BADA DAH BAH, BADA BAH, BADA BAH, BAH, BADA, BAH.

BADA DAH BAH, BADA BAH, BADA BAH, BAH, BADA, BAH.

YEAH OH NO, WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE MAN, YOU AIN'T GONNA WIN.

OH NO, WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE MAN, YOU AIN'T GONNA WIN.

WE SAY, OH NO, NOW WE AIN'T GIVING IN.

TAKE YOUR TROUBLE ELSEWHERE ..