Previously on Girl Unscripted.

Do you have any questions for me that you haven't had the chance to ask me about before?

Have your brothers ever made you bleed?

I'd be in my room like I had, like, a room the size of, like, a big closet.

And like, he would come in there while I'm getting dressed and, like, do my door and, like, hit me with a slingshot and stuff, like, full with, like, batteries and grapes and stuff.

I had, like, welts and stuff that hurt.

I have a cigarette burn right here from my sister.

She wanted me to do something with her boyfriend and I didn't want to.

So she burned my chest and then I had to anyway.

Every girl, regardless of where she lives, one bad decision will send her to the wrong direction.

What do you think the most painful part of being a teenager right now is?

The boys.

The boys, truthfully.

All right clean fight.

Let's get it on.

Aim with it.

Whatd I tell you?

Zach.

I swear to f * * * * * * God, if you don't come back here, I'm going to tap your a * * and beat the living f * * * * * * s * * * out of you.

Sammy showing him his stomach.

Aint nobody put it on you.

Ow, f * * *.

How old are you?

Old enough.

How old's that?

Old enough.

That's him smiling, I love that smile.

I really do.

Alright, I'll get the rest at my house.

I know where I want to start.

I just thought of it.

What, has she come home and told you about the program?

Oh, she loves it.

She comes home excited every day.

I'm hyper every day.

Oh yeah.

It's crazy.

I'm big in acting and, like, really big.

I've been acting since I was, like, four.

So I've been in that business, and I figured it'd be cool to learn how to use a camera and make movies and stuff, because then I can like film and write my own plays and everything because I enjoy writing too.

I really do.

I love writing and stuff and I don't know, people say I'm a good writer, but I just like, keep it to myself, like a lot and like, I'll write Wes little sweet things sometimes, too, but we don't talk about that.

Hey, Paris.

Can you meow?

Can you meow for the camera?

There we go.

This is my dog, Brownie.

Yes, there he is, there he is.

There's my little sister, Sarah.

And the pool that we're putting up, being a little fruitcake.

Erica.

What?

It is.

Turn it off.

It is.

How do you feel about me?

Honestly?

Come on, Sarah.

I'm not playing around.

I'm not playing around either.

I'm trying to think.

Don't do that.

I mean it.

You've been recorded.

How serious are you and, and, and as you say, your boo?

My boo?

I don't know.

We're like, we act like we're married.

Like, literally, I'm either always at his house or he's always here or something.

And we're always together.

I don't know.

We fight like we're married sometimes too, like, we'll get in really big arguments, but then we're like, all lovey dovey later on.

Like, we'll make up and everything.

And I don't know, I'd say we're pretty serious, but if you ask him, he's like Oh, I don't know.

Just, I don't know.

I'm 14 and he's 17.

We just have fun.

Like, we'll go out places or we'll stay home and watch movies together.

It's not like we're doing anything bad.

Like we don't go out and cause trouble on the town and stuff like a lot of people do, and we don't go to parties and drink or anything.

So I know where they are all the time.

Yeah.

And if they're not here, they're at his house with his parents, mom or dad, or they have other friends that they're running around with.

So I pretty much know nothing's going to happen.

Yeah.

I made a mistake before and so -- I had sex at 13.

And so my -- and I didn't want to tell my parents I was freaking out and everything.

Like, I used protection and stuff, but I wasn't on birth control at the time and I made a big mistake and I just broke down and confessed to my -- I don't remember if it was my dad or my mom, but one of them.

And they got me on birth control and stuff.

And they said, it's not to tell you, okay, just go out and do whatever you want.

Go have sex with every guy that comes along.

It was just a precaution in case I did something stupid and I did it again.

But I've learned that you shouldn't do that unless you're like, 100% ready.

And I guess that's why I'm so sure that I want to wait to have kids and everything.

And, I don't know.

I don't want to do anything stupid again.

I trust too easily.

But when it comes to guys, I'm very precautious because I don't want to end up hurt like somebody has hurt me before.

And with Wes, it has taken this whole time to actually give him all my trust and all my heart because I don't want to get hurt like, really bad.

It is.

He proves to me that he actually does care about me and he tells me he loves me a lot.

And I think that I can see that he does oh, my tummy like I can see that he does like I feel that he does.

And just the way he treats me, I really believe that he does.

And I wouldn't want to lose that for anything.

He's tearing up the yard before he moves.

It's going to hit me if he's not careful.

See, that's him right there.

Whatever.

Whatever.

You eat it.

That's basically the amazing him.

[Unintelligible].

Wes is being his r * * * * * * * self.

(Hush now.

Don't break the silence.

Hold these seconds.

Near your heart like a locket.

All is right.

Well and good.

All things big and small, remained said.)

Rachel has, she has bipolar disorder and she had something really terrible happen to her when she was four years old.

And she has post-traumatic stress syndrome, too.

She throws temper tantrums.

And if she's told no, she really doesn't like that at all.

And sometimes she has mood swings and and she cycles, which means that sometimes she has times where she's really, really hyper.

And then other times she has really, really low.

I have to be more patient with her, and the boys they, they don't understand that.

And I know because I had bipolar disorder and I tried to commit suicide when I was 13 years old and I went to the hospital and everything.

So I know what to look for when she is acting, you know, when she's having different mood swings and things like that.

And so I'm really scared for her.

One time I found her on the bathroom floor.

She was just hysterical, crying.

It's -- it's not like a normal, you're crying.

It's -- it's different.

It was -- it was so deep and I felt so scared for her because even though she didn't say it, her actions was like she didn't want to live anymore.

You know, she took it to that direction.

How do you kind of deal with with being bipolar?

I try not to cry and I try to like, forgive people for what they say, even though they don't know that it hurts me.

I try to forgive them and not make a big deal out of it.

(All things big and small, remained as they should.

Hush now.)

How old were you when that happened?

Four.

What?

What was it that happened?

I was taking a bath.

And then he came in there and locked the door.

And then my brother went in there and he got molested also.

Who was that guy?

My dad's friend.

We were in California and my mom and dad went to the movies and he babysitted us.

And then my brother went in there and hit him in the face, and then he quit.

And they called the police and my mom and dad.

And she for a long time had a -- she didn't like to take a bath unless the door was was open so she could hear me or she wouldn't shut the door.

She just now started to shut the door.

And then I'm still kind of scared.

Yeah.

And then she also has to sleep with me sometimes because she has very bad dreams.

I have bad dreams.

A lot.

I can't sleep alone.

One of my friends, I told her my secret that happened to me.

And this year I heard it going around the school.

And I cried.

Yeah.

It was embarrassing because people were coming up to me saying, You got molested.

How did that feel?

Are you sad?

I pushed them.

Like, leave me alone.

I don't want to talk about it.

Because I have three people in my life that did that.

I was eight through 13.

One of them was an uncle.

Mine, too.

That's my dad's brother.

He comes over and like, look at looks at me like, in a weird way, when he comes over, like the stuff that I'm wearing, I have to go change.

Because how he looks at me when he gives me hugs.

And then two other people are also in my family.

That I see all the time.

One of your brothers?

Two.

Mine too.

I would have told, but my dad said the next person that touches me -- He'll kill him?

Yeah.

I know.

That's what my dad said.

If anyone touches you, I'm going to kill them.

But you know what?

He wanted to kill his brother for touching me.

It took me until I was like 20 to understand that I didn't do anything wrong because nobody ever told me I didn't do anything wrong.

But you didn't do anything wrong, like, at all.

(I listened to you.)

My mom, when she was 12, she got kicked out of her house and she lived under the bridge.

The bridge of Oil Delano.

And yeah.

What -- what was happening that you left so young.

That seems so hard.

Actually, I didn't leave on my own.

I was kicked out.

I had -- had my stepfather arrested, and my mother blamed me for taking her husband out of her life.

So she abused me and kicked me out.

So I lived on the streets for years.

She was raped by her stepdad, and karma got back on him.

He fell on his motorcycle, split his head open.

He got his, but... Do you have friends that are getting pregnant?

What do you think of all that?

My cousin's 14.

She's five months pregnant.

She ran away to Georgia, and she's with this 18 year old, the one that got her pregnant, you know, and her mom and dad don't care about it.

They just let her go.

And I know where she is, you know?

But I'm not going to, like, tell my mom and dad because they'll go and get her and stuff like that.

And if she wants to live her life like that, then she's going to no matter what happens.

What does it make you think about if that were to happen to you?

That would never happen to me.

So if it did, I don't know what I'd end up doing.

I know I wouldn't let my mom and dad know.

My dad would like, kill them, you know?

So... Do you think that anybody in our program right now is pregnant?

Oh yeah.

There's this one girl.

She showed me her stomach and it was like, you know, for me.

And also she's like, dude, want, some of this?

And she pulled out like this little bag of white stuff.

So I don't know what it was.

Kind of scared me.

Well, there's not a whole lot to do here.

I know for the kids, there's hardly anything to do here.

Bowling and water park.

Yeah, they do have the water park now, but there's a lot of turmoil that goes on there.

I worry about her there and the bowling alley.

I worry about her there because -- I have one question.

-- there's alcohol thats served in the bowling alley.

I just worry about her pretty much everywhere.

If I'm going to do something I'm going to do it.

Yeah.

Who's gonna stop me?

Yeah, you guys can try, but.

That's what scares us even more.

A lot of bad influences, but there's bad influences anywhere you go in the world anymore.

You just have to believe that you raised them right and taught them the right morals.

Yeah.

They wont edit it?

They will edit it.

Don't worry.

Oh okay.

Can I tell you something?

I've had an abortion before.

[Unintelligible] Its because I was trying to fit in, okay?

I was trying to be cool.

I know that in this area, the population of girls that are 14 that have babies, very high.

In fact, it's the second highest population of 14 year olds in the country from what I've been reading.

And I was trying to figure out why.

Why do you think that is?

Well, a lot of girls my age now are very gullible.

And then they also like to party and they get drunk and stuff like a lot of girls would probably do that, like from Tarkio.

I'm sure a lot of the people you could probably get them to drink and everything or, and some are just too easy anymore because some see people around with everybody and they're like, Oh, I want that too.

And then other girls are like, Oh, it doesn't hurt.

Or Oh, it's so fun to be a mom and everything.

And so they're doing it and like some of them are put on birth control for it, but some of them aren't.

And then they think, Oh, I won't get pregnant the first time if I don't use a condom or if I'm not on birth control.

And then they do it and then they do get pregnant and then they freak out.

Don't know what to do.

That's my opinion.

I mean, you know, I am certainly not suggesting that this would happen to you.

But what I am curious about is, can you see how that that would affect your life negatively or positively?

If I did have a baby?

Oh, my.

Well, I'd have to work really hard because I have a job and stuff and I'd have to, like, work all that all out, like work all my dues off or whatever.

And that would be really hard.

I just I don't think I could have one right now.

I'm just not ready at all.

Like, I would be scared and I wouldn't know what to do either.

I really wouldn't.

And then there'd be all those decisions of keeping the baby, putting the baby up for adoption or having an abortion and stuff.

And I don't believe in having an abortion, and I don't believe in putting up a baby for adoption, because then they'll never know their real parents.

And when they do, you know, it's like they didn't, they wouldn't know what to do.

Like they wouldn't know if they wanted to stay with their foster mom and adopted mom or if they wanted to go with their real mom and everything.

It would just be too scary.

I just.

I don't think I could do it.

What are the things that are, like, really hard?

Like, just incredibly tough?

Well, like my parents' divorce.

It's tough.

Like living there for a while and then living here for a while and living out of a suitcase, pretty much.

I mean, I pretty much unpacked my clothes here because I feel like this is my home more than Tarkio.

My little sister was upstairs in my parents' room sleeping and the door was shut, and like I had wait, I had like awakened or whatever, and I heard them fighting.

I just, like, hid and they thought that I was asleep and like, they were like or one of them was like, they're sleeping.

Don't wake them up.

And one almost fell down the stairs.

And not long after that, my mom left.

And mom says one thing and dad says another thing.

And it's just really hard to believe what's coming from who.

But I mean, I don't think my mom just upped and left us for no reason.

I mean, no parent would do that unless they didn't have their, whatever straight, their priorities straight.

And that's just how I -- I don't know.

It's just really scary knowing that you don't know who you're going to live with, I guess.

Do you think it's one of the reasons that youve clung to your boyfriend a little bit more?

I think it is because, like with him, I, I can -- I don't know.

I feel safer when I'm with somebody that -- I don't know how to explain it.

Hi!

[Laughter] Like he makes me feel really safe and he makes me feel really loved like I should be, you know?

And he treats me a lot better than what my -- than my dad like.

He really does.

He spoils me to death.

And like, when I'm upset or something, he's always there for me.

All I have to do is call, and he'll drop everything for me.

Like, if he's working on his car or something, or he's doing something for his mom.

He's just like, Mom, I have to go.

I'll be back to do this later.

I need to see what's wrong with my baby, and he'll be there.

And that's what I love about him so much, because he's been there for me since day one.

Its just hard being me like right now and everything.

But I'm getting by.

That's my mom.

Hi, I'm Sandy.

I'm Rachel's mom.

Are you happy with yourself?

No.

Why?

I wish I could lose weight.

You're very pretty Mommy.

Thank you.

Beautiful Mom.

I love it.

I really think that the program helped a lot in aiding her maturity.

It's like she went from a child to a young lady, you know, and and that could be also her age.

But the summer of the program, when school started, I decided not to put them in public school because my son, my 17 year -- well, he was 17 then -- was hanging around with the wrong crowd and he joined a gang.

And I'm really proud of him because he decided that that wasn't the road he wanted to take.

And he came to me and his father and asked if we would help him get out.

And the reason that it was so hard for him to get out was because they jump you in and then they jump you out.

And jumping you in meant that they beat you and then to jump you out, they really beat you really hard.

And we just decided that we weren't going to let them beat him at all.

And so they were terrorizing us for a while.

Like one morning it was like 2:30 in the morning.

Sable was barking really bad and we looked out the window and there was 20 guys in the alley with pipes and bats, and they actually told my husband that they were going to take him, tie him to a chair and make him watch them rape Rachel.

And it was just, we were really scared for our lives there for a little while.

And they said that they were part of that MS-13 gang.

But I really doubt that because I think that if they were the MS-13, we'd all be dead.

I was just wondering like, a big issue for me was, as you know, because we've talked a lot about this, but because I had already been molested and like been in really bad situations before I was 12, it was really messed up when it came to guys and at school or guys that I liked and sex and stuff like that.

How is that going for you?

I had had sex.

That my last boyfriend took my virginity and I broke up with him.

And it was really hard because he has a big part of me now.

And it hurt me a lot because last night he left a message on my phone, calling me a stupid skanky whore and everything.

Like he said that I'm not going to become an actress.

I'm just going to -- Sorry, It's hitting me.

Oh.

Can you go back inside?

Thank you so much.

And it's just, really hard because he was like my first love and everything and the fact that my whole family hates him.

It was just really hard dating him because I got in so much trouble and my whole family wants to beat him up and everything.

And every time I see him, I burst into tears and I don't know why.

Because I feel stupid for letting him get to me like that.

And I feel stupid for letting him talk me into all that kind of crap.

And I knew I should have waited.

I just don't want my parents to find out and think of me bad like that.

I'm sorry.

No.

Yeah, you're such an amazing little girl.

Don't you ever, ever, ever change.

Right on the left.

To your left.

Ever, ever, ever change.

You are so amazing.

Okay?

(It took your spark, it took your laugh.

It took everything.)

I will show you my favorite food, and this big melon here.

Hold this Kimmy, Kimmy, watch.

Like my melons?

Those are nice.

Hello, dog breath.

F * * * you.

Sorry.

Do you have permission to videotape in the store?

That's a cart pusher at Wal-Mart, where my daddy works.

As sexy as can be.

Hey, he can't hear me because he has headphones on.

Yes he can, I love you!

No, no I'm playing.

I just like got in trouble because I was, like, videotaping all this stuff at Wal-Mart.

And I don't give a flying f * * *.

They can go suck a d * * * and they can go suck my daddy's hairy nuts.

Oh, wow.

I can't believe I just said that.

I love you.

Where are you?

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

Give me my 10 dollars.

Give me my pack, cmon dawg.

Y'all are f * * * * * * dealers.

Here.

I want more than that.

We don't have more than that.

Okay.

Thank you.

You want his nuts?

Wow.

I own this leg.

You little bitch.

Stop touching me.

Stop it!

Wheres your wallet?

So you were telling me that you were -- something bad was happening in your relationship, that it was what was going on?

Was -- was this John or was this a different guy?

What was he doing?

Oh, it was this dude named Arion.

I mean, he was really nice.

I've known him since the fourth grade.

He was going to be my first boyfriend.

And then I moved here and I met up with him at church, and I didn't know it was him.

And he was like my only friend that ever came to my birthday parties and stuff like that.

I mean, and I thought that he was still going to be that nice little boy that I thought he was.

But I guess it wasn't the fairy tale that I wanted it to be, you know?

I mean, like his friend John-John I dated him, too.

But I would go up there and they'd be like, they call me a bitch because whatever don't have a penis like is a bitch, I guess, you know?

And I mean, they were just really mean to me, so.

I, I mean...

So what was he doing?

Like, I always had, like, okay, if you wanted me to do something, I'd have to do it, you know, like, and I wasn't allowed to be who I wanted it to be, or else he would get mad.

And, I mean, I guess I just wanted to be with him because I thought he was nice little Arion.

But he's changed a lot and I still care about him, but he just needs to find out who he is.

And I mean, he just wanted sex and that's all guys really want.

And I remember this one time I called John-John ugly, and they grabbed me by the hair and pushed me to the ground, you know?

And it was just really bad.

I mean, I have slept with two guys, you know, willingly.

And I mean, its just really weird because, I mean, I think I found the right guy.

But then after I break up with them, like when I've been single now, you know, I found out that it's really slim that I'm going to find a guy in my age that's really going to love me, you know, and hold me and tell me everything's okay.

So if -- if they're really not going to love me, then there's no reason to have sex with them.

My relationship with Jessica, I mean, the year we have been together, you know, it's been up and down a little bit.

You know, we've had like maybe two fights.

And I mean, she always wants the best for me.

And I mean, I love her to death and hoping nothing will come between us, like, for real.

Cause she's my everything right now.

I mean, the reason I do date girls, is because guys, truthfully, they do not understand the woman's emotions and the girls do.

And when a girl and girl are together and they really care about each other, it just seems perfect because they understand each other's emotions.

They understand what they're going through.

And I mean, it just seems like nothing could go wrong when I'm with her.

What do you think the hardest thing is right now in your life?

Probably the fact of Jessica's 16th birthday party.

It's really been crushing me.

What happened?

Well, my friend Corey, I've known him for a year and a half, wait not a year and a half, like two and a half years.

One of Rachel's friends, Rachel Downs's friends and I invited him to Jessica's 16th birthday party.

Well, first we had friends come over, and after that it was like 11:30.

And we were walking around down by the Shaft, the gay bar, you know, it's always fun.

Then we went back to the Holiday Inn, and he was standing out there.

His ride wasn't there yet.

And we asked him to go buy alcohol.

He's age, he's like 21.

And I looked at him like a brother, you know, as a friend.

And he had a happy sack of weed.

I mean, the weed didn't taste right, but I still smoked it, because, you know, and after a while, Jessica was drunk.

I was high and drunk and I passed out.

I woke up, he was over on Jessica, and then I woke up and he had on my hand, his hand on my neck.

And he goes, I go, "What are you doing?"

He's like, "I always get what I want."

And then I pass out again and it was just I don't know.

And how did you guys wake up?

Where were you when you woke up?

I woke up and he was gone.

And I was over on the bed and Jessica was on the other bed with our friend Lauren.

She didn't get raped because she wet herself because she was so messed up.

But.

And she was the lucky one.

I couldn't get up.

I mean, I just wanted to get up and do something about it, but my body wouldn't let me.

You know, just all, like, I don't know.

Monday the cops wasn't there.

Tuesday they were too busy and they didn't do nothing because we only knew his first name.

I mean, like the cops don't do anything about it.

I mean, they understand that it's going to be hard, but a lot of people haven't been through it.

But a lot of people have.

And probably 50%, like 60% of the people that have been through did not want to get an exam because what happened and they're probably also scared because they don't know what they're going to do.

And my dad was going to sue the Holiday Inn for letting it happen, you know .

But they couldn't do nothing because we wasn't buying the room.

Corey works at the Holiday Inn.

I know I lost three good friends because I really didn't think they believed me about what happened.

So a long time ago, when I was talking to Rachel with her young 13 year old self.

We were talking about stuff going on, like, you know, different things that happen to us.

And she and I share a lot of things in common about that.

So, you know, different people, the people who were in our lives at that time that we thought loved us in a -- in a sincere way, right?

Okay Rachel's talking about experiences going on under the roof of her house, and I'm telling her about the experiences going on under the roof of my house and they're the same.

Right.

Very similar experience.

There, there's so many facets to that, that story right there.

(Disengage the mind.

Turn out almost all the lights.

Blinking, focus, eyes.)

Right at 17, I ran away and I got into really, really bad things.

And it was hard to get back from it.

When you say really bad things like?

Drinking all the time, all day and night doing drugs.

Trying to be numb.

Older men ...all kinds, just all kinds of stuff.

After I ran away, I didn't talk to my family.

I ignored them, all their phone calls and everything.

Her family didn't realize that they could have caused her to run away, you know?

Because her brothers were so mean to her and stuff.

Nobody saw that.

They just looked past that.

And that's -- that's the way I put it.

If I was to try to spread awareness right now, I would -- I would tell people like statistics show, and it ain't a joke, that 90% of the teens that go through what she -- half of what she has went through, they kill themselves, because they can't deal with that.

And that's why I tell her almost, probably at least 2 to 3 times a week how proud I am of her.

I've got my daddy's strength.

Yes, you do.

So it was like when your dad died.

It was just like an all out war?

He was holding the fringe, you know, He was right there holding everything together.

He was the glue to everything.

Now with my mom being exactly where my dad died, it's so hard.

That's what it is.

That's one thing I don't think Sandy sees either.

Whenever I see her face, I see her when she was havin' her seizure.

It really just bothers her.

I don't mean to stay away from her.

I don't want her to feel like I abandoned her.

It's just horrible.

I love you.

I love you.

I just pray that she understands.

What's -- do you have a hope for the future?

What's your hope for the future?

Get my son back and get out of here.

I just want out of here.

What sucks is -- I just dont like this place.

What sucks is I like the challenge, though, you know?

Like I would like to be able to get control of my life.

I don't want to raise my kids here.

You know?

I myself, at the end of the day, will feel good about that.

I'll do whatever it takes to help her, you know?

We got to go.

We got to go.

We need a better place to raise our children.

If we could get a hold of our lives here.

That'd be awesome.

Which, it's got to happen, right?

We'll get there.

As soon as we can agree on leaving.

And it's nuts you now because just like.

You know, you know all the things that happened to her.

She uses you know, she used the painkillers.

She used them to be numb, you know.

It helped her not even.

You know, help her try not to even think about it.

(Don't break the silence.

All these seconds near your heart like a locket.

All is right, well and good.

Near your heart like a locket.

All is right, well and good.

All things big and small remain just as they should.

All things big and small remain just as they should.

All thing's big and small.)

So how old were you when you had your first kid?

I got -- I was 17 when I got pregnant.

Did you think -- do you think now, looking back, it was too young or too old?

Like, what do you think about it now?

No, I don't really think so.

But I had a really eventful life when I was younger.

You know, I was on probation at 12, started traveling when I was really young, seeing a lot of places and a lot of things.

So I think I was able to settle down a little bit easier than a lot of young moms, you know what I mean?

What really kind of set me over the edge with my mom is she used to get me drunk when I was younger and we'd smoke weed and stuff.

And I spoke out to my probation officer.

I'm like, hey, I need help.

My mom's smoking weed with me.

My mom stuck me in a psych ward for two weeks and she got me on all these medicines.

I bounced out.

I go, I'm done.

As soon as I got off probation, I'm out of here.

I'm out of St. Joe.

And then I lived my own life.

And I think a lot of my depression stemmed from that.

On why I did what I did.

I was taking pills.

I was drinking every night.

I was doing hallucinogens and found out I was pregnant again.

I was like, I'm going to make this work because I couldn't hold babies.

Every time I found out I was pregnant, I would just stop.

I was like, Oh my God, I'm going to be a mom.

Finally, I'm going to be a mom.

And literally two months before I got pregnant with Zahra, I lost the baby.

And when I found out I was pregnant with Zahra, I don't know what it was.

I just stopped.

It just I've always wanted to be a mom, so I guess that's just what kind of drove me into being a better person is my babies.

And you know what I mean?

I just.

I love my kids.

That's what I live for.

That's what I thrive for is my babies.

So, you know, it does.

I don't know.

I think when I came here, I was super set on what I was doing.

I was psyched, I loved it.

It's amazing, you know, putting on film camp, watching people that are just like me have a blast, you know?

You remember all of that.

What do you remember?

Oh yeah.

I remember a lot of things.

I think my favorite thing about the film camp was the structure because that's something I lacked a lot in life is structure.

And my whole life I was always, you know, it wasn't very easy.

I didn't have a very easy life.

So when I got into the film camp, it kind of opened my mind up about what I could do and what I could be like, you know what I mean?

So and honestly, I think the film camp really inspired me to be able to go out and do what I want as my own being instead of being stuck in this town.

Like, you know what I mean?

So I got to thank you guys for that.

Definitely.

Like, you gave me a lot of hope when I was a kid.

You really did.

You give a lot of kids a lot of hope, and I know a lot of the kids that you impacted, like I grew up with those kids and though they might not be doing good now and though they may never do good, you still impacted their life positively and you did what you could.

And that's the main thing.

I know you impacted my life a lot.

I've been abused.

I've been raped, I've been hurt.

I've been I've been through what a lot of people have been through.

But I made the choice to give my kids a better life.

And ultimately, in doing so, I'm having a better life.

I'm happier, I'm healthier.

I see my kids thriving.

I see myself thriving because I made that change.

I wanted something different.

And if people don't want different, then they won't get it.

(I wouldn't say I'm prepared for this.

Well, tomorrow I will miss.)

On the next episode of Girl Unscripted.

We all came from very different backgrounds, but everybody came from something that wasn't exactly easy.

What I'm going through right now -- It's nothing.

It's nothing.

I can do this because I know I'm going to get through it and I'm going to become something.

Yeah, I started at the bottom, but you got to start somewhere to get to the top.

You're supposed to talk now.

Why should I talk?

Because you're on camera.

Because you told her to record.

I did not, I didn't say anything.

Get your foot off of me.

I didn't say anything.

And we took that as a yes.

Stop!

Stop it.

I was so happy.

You know, for her.

And I was happy that you came into her life, you know.

And my life too.

Y'all gonna -- y'all making me tear up.

(It's time to go.

It's time to go.

We loved and we let go, and now it's time.

It's time to go.

It's time to go.

We loved and we let go, and now, its time.)