Wonderfully Made

[slow piano music] [birds chirping] [drawer opening] [drawer closing] [water running] [brushing teeth] [water running] [birds chirping] - So what is up [speaking in foreign language] and the title today is Vlog Day.

I have a lot of answers.

- [Kash] Yeah so today is vlog day, y'all already know.

Y'all already see by the title and the thumbnail what this video is going to be about.

I have a couple of errands to run, I'm supposed to be doing my makeup today, so I have to go to the beauty supply house to find me some eyelashes.

[melancholy orchestral music] - [Kash] My dad taught me how to drive and that didn't take long.

My dad takes me to an empty parking lot and he's like, you know, like it came natural, like, okay, cause you only have two legs.

So it was like, you're gonna hold the steering wheel with one foot, and the other for you're gonna, you know, do the pedals.

The main thing people would be shocked to know about me is my confidence, to be honest.

[melancholy orchestral music] [car door closes] [bell rings] [cash register beeping] - [Kash] Outsiders see me, I believe that they look at my physical appearance because that's just like automatic.

Even when I go out in public it's like, people are going to see my-- me not having arms first because it's not-- you're not going to see too many people that don't have arms.

When I was younger, I didn't like too much realize how different I was until it came to my attention that, okay, you don't have arms and everyone else does.

I wanted to be normal as everyone else.

[pin pad beeping] [cash register opening] - [Kash] Most people that supported me is my family, and mostly my parents.

They taught me how to love myself.

They taught me how to love others.

They taught me how to be independent.

[indistinct talking] - Where we playing Uno at?

- I'm not playing because you guys like to cheat.

- I don't like to cheat, y'all don't know-- - [Speaker 1] Mom, but you do be cheating [overlapping shouting] - No Kimber cheats, she make up the rules as she goes.

- [Speaker 2] We playing doubles - We don't follow old school Uno rules.

- [Kash] We about to start this Uno game.

And we're waiting for my mom.

She started getting up and down, I don't know what she's doing.

- [Mom] I'm coming back.

[laughing] - She said "I'm coming back".

- Put the same number down.

- You have to put an eight blue, eight green, eight yellow.

- Yeah, it gotta be the same number, not the same color.

- [Mom] She always want to teach people, teach people how to play her way.

- [brother] You can't play that, that's a different color.

- [Speaker 1] No it's still green though.

- [Speaker 2] We mixed these colors up.

- [Speaker 3] It's supposed to be-- - [Mom] Who's turn is it?

Is it my turn?

- [Speaker 3] Kash's - [Kash] Uno.

[overlapping chatter] - Nah, it's my turn-- what?

- [Mom] The reason why it take Kim so long, because she always trying to figure out a way to cheat.

[laughter] - First of all, I don't cheat.

So don't-- I don't care because-- no, y'all-- - Uno, out.

- You cheated.

- [Kash] Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom.

[laughter] - She cheated.

[laughter] - [Kimber] She cheated.

- [Speaker 1] Can we play speed?

- [Kash] I have my momma, shes in the kitchen, my brother, Kirsten, and Kimber who bought me a bulldog.

- [Mom] So she was just active.

They hung out outside, she did a lot of stuff with dirt, she had a tricycle, like everybody else.

So the tricycle was special made, so she would get on that tricycle and go, go, go.

And, she had skates, she would skate.

So she did-- that was normal.

She just hung out, she'd hang outside, was always active.

Even when she was a baby, she would hold stuff with her chin.

So she either would grab her with her chin, or hold the pencil with her mouth or her chin.

So, we just never really said, "Okay, pick it up like this."

It's just kind of-- she knew to do it automatically.

And brushing her teeth, you know, I would just-- when she started growing, we started brushing her teeth when she was like few months old, like how to hold-- and I did show her how to hold it.

And then, you know, put the tooth paste on there.

And then, like, I guess she'd just hold it with her toes or something like that.

I don't even really remember, but I would just say, "brush like--" I really would just say, "brush like me, do like me".

And she would just do like me.

[indistinctly reading computer] [faint talking] - So this is my brother's room.

He likes playing the game and he sits in his chair, like every day.

And it has no more cushion in it at this point.

- She's clingy sometimes.

- [Kash] Clingy?

- Yes.

[laughing] - You're clingy.

- I'm not clingy, like, but I always want my, my siblings to know I love them.

So like, I always be like, "give me a hug", you know, randomly, you know?

And they don't like-- [laughter] - We have another family member.

- That's not a part of the family.

- Yes she is girl.

- This is Dora.

- And Dora's not part of the family.

- Stop, stop, her head, her head is already opening up.

- That girl is not part of the family.

- This is Dora.

This is, this is Kirsten.

Kirsten wave your hand.

This is her baby.

[laughter] - Let me tell you something, She-- she-- okay, let me tell you about her.

She don't like sentimental stuff.

Like, she don't-- she not going to give you a hug, okay.

She don't like all that.

- [Kirsten] But it doesn't mean I don't love you.

- [Kash] She's just like tough love.

- I don't know.

She not love-- I'm not that type of person that's like-- you know how just some people is just perky and just, "I love you so much", that's just not me.

[laughter] - That's not me.

- [Kash] Oh girl, come on.

[Something New by Wiz Khalifa playing] [singing along] - Okay, so this used to be my old closet, which is now my sister's closet, but I still have like my trophies and stuff in here and like stuff I went through, like in high school.

- [Kash] This is a letter, like the whole school, the athletic team wrote me, cause I broke my shoulder in middle school.

So it's like a little whole thing right here.

Athletics, I've got my spirit award, and then, we went to Medieval Times, my senior year.

And then these are a couple of associates.

I'm going to be honest when I was younger, and it was just like, I wasn't too focused on people, worrying about people, knowing that I don't have any arms, because at the time I was young.

So, you know, like my mind wasn't set on what other people were saying or thinking.

So when I got to middle school and I started to do cheerleading, you know, I was more aware, okay, I don't have arms, people look at you, they're gonna talk about you, this, this and that.

With cheerleading, I used to try to like, hide my shoulders.

And my senior year, I said I'm not going to do that no more, I'm not going to hide my shoulders, I'm just gonna, you know, like be free and accept who I am and accept how I look physically.

And so the older I got, the more comfortable I got with myself.

[slow piano music] [cars passing] - All we need.

- [Brother] What else?

- What else was it?

Toothpaste, soap.

- [Kash] When it came to me learning to, or not learning, just coming naturally, doing things on my feet.

It was just easy.

Like even when I was younger, I used to hold the bottle with my feet and sit on my hands.

I learned how to just do everything with my feet by experience.

The more I grew up, the more, you know, I had to do, the more I learned how to do.

[faint talking] - [Speaker 1] I'm not doing anything else today.

I have homework and I need to relax my brain, too tired.

[faint talking] - [Speaker 1] You think so?

- But I wanted you to grab them, cause I like them.

[faint talking] - [Speaker 1] Because I like those.

[typing on keypad] - [Kash] Don't dis my ability, you know, just cause I look like I can't do anything, don't think I can't, you know?

And even with people in wheelchairs that have arms or just that's in a wheelchair, I feel as if people look at them different too.

You know like, oh, you can't get around fast enough or something like that.

And that is so wrong, you know?

Like, it doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter how long this person is gonna to take to do this, it's if they can get the job done is all that matters.

[religious sermon playing] - [Kash] Confidence or having self-esteem about yourself, that doesn't come over night.

I went through self esteem, and I went through, you know, having to build myself up and it took me-- oh wow.

[religious sermon playing] I went through like a big hump middle school, high school.

And then it was like another hump of me trying to-- okay, so it was like, okay, I'm accepting myself, you know, I'm trying to love myself, you know, this, this, and that, and finding your worth.

- [Kash] I'll say it took me five to six years for me to get over this huge hump.

Me, accepting myself and loving myself and you know, caring about myself.

[slow piano music] - [Kash] And right now, and right now, I am happy.

- [Kash] And now I'm in a place where I'm by myself, and I know who I am, I know what I want, I know my worth, so I'm happy.

So now, I'm just working on fulfilling my goals.

Handicapped people, or people that are built different physically, you know, needs, you know, help or whatever.

It can be regular people that needs help.

So I just believe that I want to represent all.

[uplifting orchestral music] It's a lot about being fair, and knowing that we're all human.

If we're a different color, if we're two toned, if we're huge, if we're skinny, if we're in the middle, if we fine, if anything, we're all human, we're all human.

[uplifting string music]