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[Music] [music] Interviewer: How do you identify in the straight-to-queer spectrum?

Man: I identify as a gay man.

Speaker: I am a gay non-binary Latino.

Like, I don't know, like... Speaker 2: Definitely the goddess of the queer world.

I'm just kidding.

I am non-binary.

Interviewer: What is your relationship with your father in one word?

Speaker 3: Um... Speaker 4: In one word?

[Button clicks] [Luiz speaking Portuguese] [Young Eduardo speaking Portuguese] [Luiz continues in Portuguese] Eduardo: My relationship with my father was never simple.

[Music] Eduardo: Growing up in Brazil, I never really fit in with the boys.

When I was ten, I discovered gymnastics.

I loved it, found a community there.

But that year, I started acting more feminine.

[Luiz speaking Portuguese] [Music continues] Eduardo: I remember my dad telling me to talk straight... a lot.

[Conversation in Portuguese] Eduardo: Eventually, his pressure made me so uncomfortable that I just decided to quit.

Now I've been out as a gay man for over a decade.

From the outside, our relationship looks great.

But the truth is it's still superficial.

I suspect it's largely because I have all these things from our past that I've just never said to him.

It's a blessing we're still both around, but I know that won't be the case forever.

So, I invited him to come to Los Angeles to have a conversation.

And my hope is that we can go deeper than ever before.

[Cell phone ringing] [Conversation in Portuguese] [Eduardo laughs] [Eduardo sighs] [Luiz speaking Portuguese] Jordan: I would describe my relationship with my father as awkward.

Speaker 1: Difficult.

Speaker 4: Terminated.

Speaker 1: I came out to him when I was about 16, 15 years old.

And the first thing he told me was "I would rather have a dead son than a gay son."

[Waves breaking] Gabriel: We have the weight of culture that, you know, suppress our existence, you know?

And actually, you know, in many cultures, like the Latino culture, will look at having a gay son is a horrible thing to have.

It's like a--you know, you're being punished by God.

One of the things that I experienced when I started the team, a lot of these kids lack of a tribe to belong to.

This has provided that.

[Indistinct chatter] Eduardo: Why do you think so many gay men have difficult relationships with their fathers?

Gabriel: Well, I mean, you're expected to form a family and marry the woman and have children.

And, you know, that's the first thing that happens when you give those news.

All of a sudden, it's like you're not gonna be in what is expected of you.

And parents tend to feel they failed, particularly the fathers tend to feel that they failed.

They take that frustration on their kids.

Eduardo: I've been reflecting a lot on, like, this relationship with my dad, and I feel like there's something there that's around femininity and masculinity, which is why this is really interesting to me.

Gabriel: And you think it comes from your dad-relationship?

Eduardo: Yeah, very much so.

My dad would tell me to act like a man when I didn't.

Man 1: Of course.

I'll let you know.

Man 2: Rebellion on three!

Rebellion on me, one, two, three.

All: Rebellion!

Speaker 1: I kind of became closeted again.

I tried to stay away from anything feminine.

And at the end of the day, that ... me over.

Like, I was so ... unhappy who--with who I was.

Jordan: I wish I could go back in time and, like, meet him as myself now and be like, "It's not that serious.

It's OK.

Like, if your kid's not hurting anybody, who cares if they wanna hold a Barbie.

It's fine."

[Faucet running] Eduardo: Acting feminine is something I've associated with literally risking my life.

I've been bullied because of it.

It feels dangerous.

But I'm finally ready to face that.

[Birds chirping] Eduardo: Hello.

Jordan: Hi.

Come on in.

Hello.

Good morning.

Eduardo: Good to see you.

Jordan: You made it all the way out.

Eduardo: We did.

Thank you so much.

We're coming in.

Jordan: Yay.

This is my home.

Eduardo: This is beautiful.

Jordan: Welcome to my Caucasian home.

Eduardo: [Laughs] It's so white.

Jordan: My minimalist Hispanic home.

So, we're doing... Eduardo: Tell me-- Jordan: ...this.

[Laughs] Eduardo: Whatever.

You tell me.

Jordan: Well, um, we're gonna maybe do some makeup and put a wig on and see what happens.

Eduardo: Sounds good.

Why am I so nervous?

Jordan: I don't know.

Don't be.

You're gonna be fine.

Eduardo: Are you nervous?

Jordan: No.

You're gonna look great.

I'm very good at this.

That's how you know you're a ho is you can fit your outfit in a sandwich bag.

That's fierce.

That's so--wait.

Let's see this.

Eduardo: You wanna see it?

Jordan: Yes.

It's a sequined.

Oh, it's pretty.

Eduardo: This is so embarrassing.

Did you ever-- did anyone ever tell you to act like a boy or act like a man when you were growing up?

Jordan: Oh, yeah, all the time.

They tried.

Eduardo: Like your parents or-- Jordan: Yes, everyone.

Eduardo: What did they say?

Jordan: It was just like little things, like, "Don't do this," or like, Don't do, "Like, why are you standing like that?"

I'm like, bitch, I don't know.

I don't understand what was going on at the time.

Eduardo: Do you have any advice for me in this conversation with my dad?

Jordan: Um, I'm really bad at giving advice 'cause my first thought is like, hit him with your car.

Like, I'm evil.

I am vengeful and nasty, so, I mean, honestly, I would be like, um, don't hold back.

Say exactly how you feel, and don't worry about his feelings because he's a grown man and he needs to--you know, he needs to face the ways that his behavior has affected you.

Because trauma is real, especially for queer people, so I'm like, show up with a full list.

"These are the ways that you..." Eduardo: Yeah.

Jordan: "... me up as a kid, and now I gotta pay for the therapy, so figure it out."

OK.

Now do the thing.

[Lip smacks] Like this.

[Smacking lips] Yes.

Slick.

Eduardo: Looking feminine, to me, I guess, is delicate.

I think--I think, you know, what my fear is, is that the appearance will look feminine, but then how do I behave?

How do I move?

[Gasps] Jordan: You see?

Do like this.

You see how it, like, shimmers and glitters?

Eduardo: Wow.

Jordan: It's perfect.

You're a lady.

Eduardo: Wow.

I love the hair.

This is so--Oh, my God.

This is so weird.

Um... Because I think, like, I still don't believe it's myself on some level.

Um, but... it does feel nice, if feels fun, and it feels exhilarating.

It feels like something-- something natural to explore.

Woman: Do you feel like you wanna show this to your dad?

Eduardo: No.

[Laughs] It's kind of scary.

Eduardo: They're here.

[Conversation in Portuguese] [Silvia chuckles] Both: Mwah!

[Music playing] Eduardo: Right here.

Perfect.

My dad will sit here.

[Conversations in Portuguese] [Playing "Heart and Soul"] [Conversation in Portuguese] [Eduardo laughs] [Indistinct chatter] [Conversation in Portuguese] [Young Eduardo speaking Portuguese] [Luiz speaking Portuguese in voice-over] Luiz: Ah.

Eduardo: Ah.

[Indistinct chatter on video] [Conversations in Portuguese] [Luiz speaking Portuguese] Eduardo: Mm-hmm.

Eduardo: Yeah.

Eduardo: Yeah.

[Music] [Laughter] [Music continues] [Waves breaking] [Luiz speaking indistinctly] [Music continues] Speaker 2: He's my best friend, and it was because I decided to have a relationship with him and sit down with him and be patient with him and educate him on who I am as a queer person.

Speaker 5: The first time I said "I love you" to him, absolutely a million pounds lifted off my shoulders 'cause I got to finally break that cycle of not expressing the emotion or having no emotion expressed between a parent and a child.

Interviewer 2: What's your relationship with your dad like now in one word?

Eduardo: Wonderful.

[Music] [Seagulls squawking] [Objects clatter] Nora: Hazel!

Hazel: I was bringing over the used cups.

[Nora sighs] Nora: I know you're trying to help, but if you wanna come to the cafe with me, it's best you stay here.

Bob: Nora!

Look, there's only two of us here today.

Nora: Hey.

Sorry.

[Hazel sighs] [Gasps] [Seagull squawks] [Music] [Squawks] [Taps glass] Nora: Hot cocoa?

Look, I wanna hang out with you, too.

Just not here, OK?

Hazel: Then maybe after work?

Nora: [Sighs] I'm-- Bob: Crap!

How did it get in here?

[Music] [Window creaks] Bob: Shoo, shoo!

[Grunts] Nora: Uhh.

[Seagull squawking] [Bob grunts] Bob: Well, I'm not tall enough.

Nora: Hazel!

What were you thinking?

I can't lose this job.

Hazel: I'm-- Nora: Stop!

I'm taking you home.

[Coffee machine whirring] Bob: Wait.

[Playful music playing] [Applause] [Sips] This is legit.

[Nora sighs] Customer 1: Hey, can I get a cup of that Seagull Coffee?

Customer 2: Same here.

Customer 3: Could we get two?

Nora: Mm.

[Seagull squawks] [Coffee dripping] Nora: Well, if your seagull is joining the team, I gotta teach it hot cocoa, too.

Hey, you wanna go to the beach later?

Hazel: You're not mad at me?

Nora: Hmm, if you help me clean, we're good.

[Music] [Music] [Woman speaking Chinese] [Exhales] [Footsteps approaching] [Young woman breathing heavily] [Woman continues in Chinese] Woman: Uh, phone back to you.

Hello.

[Chuckles] Daughter: Mom.

Daughter: Mom.

Those are doughnuts.

Woman: Oh, do--doughnuts.

Doughnuts.

Immigration Officer: No, thank you.

OK.

Let's see if there are any-- May I please see your photo identity card?

Woman: ID.

Hmm.

Immigration Officer: OK.

Let's see here.

OK.

Here you go.

OK.

Can you please stand and raise your right hand?

OK.

Do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth?

Woman: I swear the truth, the whole truth, nothing truth.

Daughter: Sorry.

My mom gets lost sometimes.

She's got a short-term memory.

Immigration Officer: Mm-hmm.

Daughter: We're talking about, like, five seconds short.

Immigration Officer: Hmm.

Have you ever committed any crimes?

Woman: Yes, yes.

Daughter: Mom!

[Speaking Chinese] Woman: Oh, no, no.

No, no, I'm a very good lady.

[Music] [Woman speaking Chinese] [Indistinct chatter] [Woman speaking Chinese] Daughter: My favorite dish.

[Indistinct chatter] Man: What is that?

[Woman 2 speaking indistinctly] Man: Oh, OK.

[Conversations in Chinese] Lulu: an actor.

Man: Hmm?

Woman: Ah?

Lulu: Oh, sorry.

[Continues in Chinese] Man: We should tell 'em.

Lulu: Shh.

No, not tonight.

[Conversation in Chinese] Lulu: Mmm.

Pass the bowl, pass the bowl.

[David speaking Chinese] [Conversation in Chinese] [David speaking indistinctly] Lulu: Yeah.

Try it.

[Conversations in Chinese] [Laughs] Lulu: Eh?

Lulu: I remember my mom's boss had a really strong Southern accent, and when he knew that I was gonna translate for her... David: Mm-hmm.

Lulu: ...he was like, "I'm officially laying your mom off.

Tell her she ain't coming to work on Monday."

David: "I'm officially laying your mama off.

So she ain't coming back on Monday."

[Lulu laughing] Lulu: Exactly.

So I was just like, what, eight years old.

And I was like... David: Mm-hmm.

Lulu: I have no idea what he was talking about.

David: Uh-huh.

Lulu: So I was like... [Man snoring] Lulu: "Hmm, OK."

David: Mm-hmm.

Lulu: "Then can she come on Tuesday?"

[Laughter] [Chen speaking Chinese] David: For real?

[Chen continues in Chinese] Hey!

[Continues in Chinese] [Conversations in Chinese] [Laughter] [Conversations in Chinese] Lulu: Mom... [Continues in Chinese] [Man snoring] Woman: Hey, Wang Yi.

Wang Yi, Wang Yi.

[Speaking Chinese] Lulu: Mom... [Continues in Chinese] David: Oh, my God.

Lulu: Mom.

Mom.

[Indistinct chatter] David: You OK?

[Conversations in Chinese] [Chen sobbing] Lulu: Mom... [Continues in Chinese] Chen: Oh?

[Continues in Chinese] Others: Ooh.

Lulu: I'm so sorry.

David: It's fine.

It's fine.

I don't know what she said.

Do you want some space?

I can leave.

Lulu: No, no, no.

You don't have to.

OK.

You can go.

[Conversation in Chinese] Lulu: Mom... [Continues in Chinese] [Vase shatters] Mom... Lulu: Mom... [Footsteps receding] [Rustling] [Lulu crying] David: All right?

Let's go.

Come on.

It's okay.

Can you get the door?

[Music] [Inhaling and exhaling deeply] [Car horn honks] [Music] [Footsteps] [Music] June: Maybe it'll be different this time.

April: Doubt it.

June: Well, something's different, or they wouldn't have invited us.

April: Maybe.

June: Trust your aunt.

She's been around the block a few times.

April: A few?

June: OK, many.

A lot.

April: Why do you think they invited us, though?

June: Well, we're about to find out.

You ready?

April?

April: Mm-hmm.

You know, if I throw up on everything, I'm probably just gonna blame you, so... June: I'd expect nothing less.

[Knock on door] John: Hello?

June: Hi, John.

April: Hi, Dad.

John: You can come inside.

[Silverware clanking] June: How have things been, Sarah?

Abraham: The same.

June: Oh.

Any cows give birth recently?

Abraham: Bella.

She died.

June: Good spring, though.

Abraham: Tolerable.

John: There was a lot of rain up in the mountains, but, uh, it didn't come down here for a while.

And we thought, well, maybe it'll be too dry, but then there was a big storm about March.

[Chastity chuckles] [Loud clank] Sarah: Chastity's getting married soon to Jeremiah.

John: The father says it's a good match.

Chastity: The wedding's gonna be in the spring.

June: April.

See you in the car.

April: It was nice to see you, Mom.

Sarah: You should go.

[Door closes] [Music] June: April, just take a minute to think about what you're go-- April: Chastity.

Hey.

This place isn't good for you.

You're smart and you're beautiful, and just leave with me.

Please?

Just for a little bit, OK?

We can talk and catch up.

Chastity, please.

[Electronic doorbell tones sound] Hear we are.

Try one.

Chastity: It's awful.

April: It's seasoned.

There's a difference.

Chastity: I wanna go back.

April: What?

Why would you ever wanna go back?

Chastity: They're my family.

Will you still come to the wedding?

[Gate creaks open] April: Did you just child block me?

June: She's made her choice.

April: She doesn't even know what-- She's getting married, June.

She's 16.

She should be allowed to be 16.

You don't understand.

June: I lost my sister to a cult, too, April.

She has to be willing to go.

April: Well, I can still grab her.

I mean, it's pretty easy.

I can just go in there, so... June: She'll come back.

April: Well, I'll stop her.

June: That won't turn out well.

April: OK, so what else am I supposed to do?

She's my sister.

June: You keep doing this over and over, maybe forever.

[Music] April: I--I knew exactly what I was gonna say when I saw her.

I knew exactly what I was gonna do, how I was gonna get her out of there, and none of it mattered.

None of it.

June: Stop.

April: I-- June: It matters.

It always matters.

[Music continues] [Music] Manager: I gathered you all here today to announce the promotion of a very special employee.

Everyone, I'm thrilled to declare that our new chief of emails is Ratrick.

As part of your promotion, you'll receive an extra bag of pretzels during your designated lunch break.

Enjoy.

Ratrick: This is the best day of my life.

[Cellphone ringing] [Jeffrey coughs] Hey, hey, little bro.

Uh, Mom and Dad are kicking me out of the basement.

Could you do me a favor and let me stay with you?

Ratrick: Uh... [Music] Jeffrey: What's up?

Thanks for leaving your window open, dude.

Oh, sorry about the lights.

I guess my gaming setup is using all the power.

Ratrick: Don't worry about it.

I'm happy to have you, bro.

Jeffrey: Oh, I'll be out of here soon.

I just gotta get my money up.

But I think my Poopcoin investment's gonna pay off any day now.

Ratrick: There's no rush.

It'll be nice to live together again, like when we were kids.

[Jeffrey chuckles] Jeffrey: Cheers to that, bro.

[Knocking on door] Ratrick: What's taking so long?

I gotta get to work.

Jeffrey: Shh.

Don't disturb the soup, bro.

The porcelain bowl is optimal for flavor combination.

I gotta let it simmer in here for at least a few hours.

[Electric guitar music] Jeffrey: ♪ If you want to destroy my sweater, whoa, whoa, whoa ♪ Yo, Ratrick, check out this gnarly toe fungus.

Singer: ♪ Up in da club Singer: ♪ Where you chillin' for the summer, homie?

Singer: Up in da club Singer: Jumpin' out the stretch Hummer runnin' ♪ Singer: Up in da club Singer: Fly ladies from wall to wall [Glass shatters] Singer: Up in da club... ♪ Ratrick: Jeffrey!

Jeffrey: Ratrick, dude, I gotta introduce you to my buddy David.

It's his birthday today.

Ratrick: Can you please keep it down?

I have work tomorrow.

[Door slams] [Music continues] [Bright music] Ratrick: What time is it?

Where's my phone?

Jeffrey: Oh, sorry.

David had to borrow it for a family emergency.

Come on, David.

Give it back.

[Keypad beeping] Ratrick: I'm so sorry.

I'm gonna be approximately six minutes late today.

Please excuse-- Manager: Don't bother.

You're fired.

I also went ahead and blacklisted you from every other job in the state.

Have a great day.

[Dial tone] [Crying] Jeffrey: Dude, I'm so sorry.

Please don't kick me out, though.

Ratrick: What's the point?

I can't pay rent anyways.

I'm gonna start looking for a bridge to sleep under.

Jeffrey: Don't worry, bro.

I have a plan.

Please would you give my brother his job back?

Please.

Oh, please.

Please, please, please, please, please, please.

Manager: No can do.

We already hired a replacement.

Now, please get out.

We're on our lunch break.

[Man whispering] Manager: What do you mean, we're all out of pretzel bags?

Jeffrey: Wait.

You guys are hungry?

Hang on.

[Toilet flushes] Jeffrey: I got just the thing.

[Woman screaming] Manager: This is amazing.

We're hiring you as our permanent chef.

[Harmonica music] Man: Excuse me.

Are you the brother of Jeffrey C. Pinkus?

Ratrick: Yeah.

Man: We're here to drop off his Poopcoin winnings.

Uh, he won't respond to our emails, but you'll give it to him, right?

Ratrick: Uh, yeah, yeah, totally.

[Cash register rings] [Car horn honking] Backup singers: ♪ Up in da club Singer: Where you chillin' for the summer, homie?

Backup singer: Up in da club Singer: Jumpin' out the stretch, Hummer runnin' Backup Singer: Up in da club Singer: Fly ladies from... Ratrick: Hey, bro ♪ where'd you get the hat?

Jeffrey: Oh, I guess I got a job now.

Where'd you get the Cybertruck?

Ratrick: Don't worry about it.

Jeffrey: Well, sorry I couldn't get you your job back.

Ratrick: I think I'll be fine.

Besides, now that I'm unemployed, I finally have time to hang out with you.

Jeffrey: Oh, well, you'll always have your job as the best brother ever.

[Laughs] But, uh, I can't hang out.

I gotta go to work in five minutes.

[Music] [Music] [Music] Man: Funding for "Fine Cut: Festival of Films" is generously provided by The Bridges Larson Foundation.